Where to start, where to start... Although Autumn 2008 left me unhealthy, unhappy, and full of uncertainty of the future, I'd have to say things have taken a dramatic turn in the other direction.
For those of you who did not know, I was having some difficulty last fall dealing with anxiety and panic disorder, which led to some depression... and of course, a nice side of gloom from Ohio weather proved a recipe for disaster. I dealt with it in my own way for as long as I could, but by November I ended up in the Hospital because I was too thin, unhealthy, and just too tired to carry this all by myself anymore. I cannot say that my family, friends and love of my life Andrew weren't there for me, but this was something beyond what anyone could do for me. I did what I thought was in my best interest at the time, and I don't regret my decision to get some help.
Thankfully, I recovered and by Christmas was pretty much back to my normal self, weight and all. I never knew how powerful the human mind is until I thought myself into the darkest place imaginable, just by being afraid to go there... that's where I kept taking myself. I also know, that going through something so treacherous I am stronger and wiser than I ever give myself credit for.
Three weeks after Christmas I was busy working, and spending time with Andrew and my family. I suppose there wasn't much else on my agenda because as usual, there was a snow storm about every other day... Yuck. Although I was glad to be on my way to recovery, I couldn't help but still not feel right. I was getting sick often, and couldn't figure out why... Because I was eating, sleeping and taking all the vitamins that my mom shoved at me everyday, ha.
Now, I knew I was eating quite a bit, which made sense because I had dropped to a boney 90 lbs. in November... I had a lot to make up for. The only strange thing about puting the weight back on (as I had done several times in my life) was that it was dispersing in new areas that it never had before. I noticed that my shirts were tighter and pants fit fine in the thigh, but above that there was some difficulty buttoning them.
I ignored it for a while, but when push came to shove--literally, with my clothes-- I decided to take the matter into my own hands. (Note: because of the weight loss and different medications I was taking, I hadn't had a period in several months.) I manned up... and then cried... and took a pregnancy text. Surprise of 2009... a big, fat +!
Although the news of a baby was difficult for me to swallow, the food definitely wasn't. I am up to a record weight (for me) of 125! I hate that my clothes don't fit, but I am really starting to embrace this new body of mine, and the fact that I am no longer just Christy... I am now a life-support system for the most wonderful, adorable little peanut of cells I have ever laid eyes on!
Andrew, my new fiance (as of February) couldn't be more supportive. He is so awesome... rubbing my back, Making me laugh, and of course making me feel pretty even though I'm starting to get that "whale" feeling (I know, it's early.. but I do!), and most definitely helping my put my shoes on when I feel like I can't bend over that day, haha. My family has been here every step of the way, and they are just as excited as us for this adventure, and for when the wonderful bundle arrives.
The baby is due in September, and as of Saturday (march 15) I was 3 months along... so we are 1/3 of the way there! Hopefully Monday (march 23) we will be able to find out the gender, as long as the bebe cooperates and is in the right position!
As for a wedding of sorts, we are waiting until after the babe arrives so we have a little more time to digest, in the mean time we will continue to live at home with our parents and save as much money as possible.
I have received so many congratulations and well wishes from all of you, and I totally appreciate it! It's so nice to have positive things happening in my life, I just could never get it all into words. Please keep us, and our baby in your prayers for a healthy, safe delivery.


On a side note, if anyone has any furniture, baby attire, or just anything they can spare.... we would greatly appreciate it! I'm on a mission =)