I have noticed a lot of people posting blogs today that make me think...which is never a good thing...and something someone posted this morning made me think about a question my philosophy teacher in college asked on the first day of class (with the understanding that our final was going to be to give an answer to this question):

If you could choose to have the perfect happiness, the perfect mood, the perfect feeling, (basically the big warm fuzzy permanently), with no pain, guilt, sorrow or remorse, would you choose to end your life tomorrow to get it?

I don't even remember my answer at the time, I am pretty sure I said I wouldn't take it since I felt I hadn't lived, I just remember I passed the class and his comment to me on my answer was: "Rethink this in a few years and then answer again".

Sadly, thinking about this question so far today I think my answer might actually be different.  No sorrow, no remorse, constant happiness...no pain...it sounds like perfection to me.  I wouldn't have to preform for anyone like a puppet on the stage of life, I wouldn't have to try and fit any molds, it would be mine, I would finally only have me and my happiness to worry about. 

It hit me earlier today that one of my biggest obstacles in my own happiness is the fact that I put everyone else's needs and wants and happiness period in front of my own.  By the time I get to me I am to exhausted to even consider my own. 

Funny enough I realized that none of us ever asked him for his answer...I wonder what it really was?