How cruel life can be. You find the man of your dreams, he loves you, you share a wonderful relationship. then one day...a few problems develope. Oh my.. yes they are serious but not something that cant be overcome. You begin talking about the problems, taking steps to correct them.  One day he tells you, i cant stay here  i need a break...oh and im in love with someone else.   OMG shock... then he tells you...its your friend. Someone youve known and trusted and cared for for 5 years. Defended, stood up for, listened to her cry over her latest bad relationship, offered advice to and was there to hold their hand through it all. you find out this has been going on for months behind your back. what a friend! and to find out more, this is not the first time shes done something like this. And she spouts off about how honorable and loyal she is... HA HA HA!  and she called herself my friend. Im sorry a real friend wouldnt work and connive to take from you the man you love and are engaged to be married to. no..its not like she didnt know... she was invited to the wedding!   Is she the only source of blame...no... I made mistakes yes.  He made mistakes yes.

screw the world i dont need it anymore. im tired of the bullshit. im tired of being the one to give up my heart, to have it ripped, clawed and torn to shreds then tossed to the ground and stomped on. fuck it . im gone see yall later!~