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Category: Art and Photography
No More Pain Grandma
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For as long as I can remember my grandmother always struggled and suffered from severe arthritis pain, the joints in her fingers and toes became so distorted and deformed, that she was no longer able to properly function and be mobile like a normal person should.
She would cry, but never wanted to burden nor complain about her enormous pain because she never wanted to be a bother. I could never truly understand the severity of her pain and what she was going through, but I felt it and I sympathized with her as much as I possibly could, no one should have to suffer in this way ever!
I became very close to my Grandmother through out the years, she was like a "mother" to me, she cared for me, understood me, never judged me, supported me, and always loved me unconditionally. I have always loved her like my own mother.
I can clearly remember as if it were yesterday that she was still alive, I used to be the only grandchild out of my other 3 siblings that cared for her unconditionally. I would be the one to bathe her, feed her, change her clothes, and spend time with her when no one else did, sometimes just thinking about her brings tears to my eyes. She was my best friend, and the only person that truly looked out for my best interest and feelings.
Unfortunately, at the age of 73 my Grandmother and best friend passed away in the hospital after suffering so badly from her pain in the past week, and almost all of her life. She could no longer contain herself from crying and screaming, which was the scariest moment for me, especially when I was so young and helpless, I knew something was not right, but I was far too young to understand.
The day that my Grandmother passed away, my mom, dad, and aunt were in the hospital with her. As she was slipping away, she made sure to grab hold of everybody's hand that was by her bedside until she was down to her last breath. I know my Grandmother wanted to reach out for me, but I was not allowed to be there because my parents felt that it would be too hard and painful for me to witness her passing.
At 7:30 a.m. my Grandmother passed away, and around the same time, I had a very realistic dream about being at the hospital, by her bed side, holding her hand, crying, and I remember saying "Grandma, I don't want you to go, please stay with me." She replied saying that everything would be ok, and that she had to go to a better place, where she would no longer suffer from anymore pain. She also reassured me that she would always look over me and protect me, and never let anything bad happen to me.
I continued to cry, and woke up suddenly in a cold sweat with tears strolling down my eyes, Something told me to look over at my clock and noticed it was 7:30 a.m. I was not able to fall back asleep afterwards. Later that day my parents called and said that my Grandmother passed away at 7:30 a.m. and that she passed away peacefully.
I feel like it was not a coincidence, I believe my Grandmother came to say good bye to me one last time, knowing that I wanted to be by her side. That was a great blessing for me. Even though losing someone you love so dearly is extremely hard, just knowing that she said good bye to me, she is no longer in pain, and that she has gone to a better place, really helped me to cope with her loss. I am grateful for having such an amazing person in my life, she is very inspirational, and is one of my true heroes.
This painting was inspired by knowing that my grandmother is in a beautiful, and better place, with no more sadness, sorrow, or pain any longer.
"No More Pain for Grandma" May You Rest in Peace.
11:30 AM
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