Hi everyone...to all my old friends and new friend requests and messages I haven't been able to answer yet (please forgive me).  This has been the most difficult year of my life, post my childhood torture and abuse!  Where do I begin?  I started the year very physically ill and was actually clinically dead for a couple of minutes!  I was honestly devestated when they brought me back.  I would NEVER commit suicide, but I was ready for Jesus to take me home where I would not suffer any more.  Apparently, that was not his plan.  As some of you know, I lost my job last Feb. and I haven't been able to find a job since.  I applied for disability and even used an attorney/advocate that specializes in disability applications with the SSA.  I just found out recently that I was denied.  I have been actively looking for a job and haven't received one call back.  We'll lose our house shortly.

The good, great, fantastic, life-saving news is I got through a program for DID and PTSD and it was very successful!  It is called WIIT - Women's Institute for Incorporation Therapy.  http://www.wiit.com/  It's located in Hollywood, Florida.  My husband found it for me in September after I spent a week-long stint in bed.  My parts were out all over the place and I could no longer drive without fear of disappearing.  It has been a very strange time!  One of my parts plotted to kill me  on several occassions and i got so paranoid that when my husband was traveling for his job and my daughter was at school, I woud barricade myself in  my bedroom...not to keep fearful things out, but to keep me in!  I have many stories to tell about my dissociative fuges, escapes, lost time, etc., but I'll wait to blog about that later.

This bulletin is just to say that I am much better, both physically and mentally/emotionally and to recommend the WITT program   http://www.wiit.com/  to anyone struggling with severe trauma, PTSD and/or DID.  Check out their web site.  My insurance covered it 100% and even if it didn't, my husband was willing to sell everything to get me into the program.  It was life-changing.  I have not switched since I've been back.  I still won't be on-line as much as i'd like in the immediate future, because it is imperative that I find a job, but I promise to be back more regularly whenever I can.  I've been praying for you all and send my love, Hope?