Life is nuts and the thing is, the human race is so diverse and complicated that sometimes it blurs our visions of what is actually happening. Feelings and emotions get in the way and influence decisions we make. All I can see myself doing is getting frustrated. Frustrated at everything. I learn though, to cope and to heal and to understand. To have faith and trust in God. And also pretty much just going through the motions. Anyway, my point is, all we really want is to be happy and satisfied. To see our loved ones happy and to make the best of situations, but somewhere along the line we make mistakes. AHH MISTAKES! Which causes situations to prolong or to get worse. A human trait that is unfavorable, but also, a part of this circle of life. I realize as well that we humans are never truly happy unless we are happy with ourselves. That first and foremost.  After that, we need to learn how to appreciate the little things, the things we have instead of pointing out the things we don't have. Which is what we do a lot of the time whether we realize it sometimes or not. We need to appreciate the good in everything and concentrate on those things no matter how minute it might be. I struggle a lot with myself too. Happiness is a struggle.  A lot of the time I think I know the answers to everything (which is what makes me happy ) and I'm fully capable of overcoming anything.  That therein is my problem. You see, I feel completely in control of everything in my life., everything from the dishes, to bills, to my personal relationships. I'm always in control.  The reason it's a problem is because I blind myself subconsciously from seeing all the things that I do wrong. So I feel that there's nothing wrong with me, but that thinking IS what's wrong with me. I realize it because I refuse to be blinded by anything. My family has opened my eyes a little to see what it is that's wrong with me that I myself am not seeing.  I know i'm not perfect, but for some reason those are the standards I force on other people. Atleast i'm honest, atleast I can admit to myself and to everyone that I have a problem. That I don't have it all together and no, I don't have the answers to everything. So, Note to myself:  QUIT ACTING LIKE YOU KNOW EVERYTHING!!!!