At the moment I have a million things running through my mind so here’s a few of them
***Random Thought 1***
Isn’t it sad how we can know someone for years & hardley ever talk to them but as soon as they’re gone we can’t stop thinking about them? This is one thing Jacey tried so hard to make sure her myspace list wasn’t. She was always cleaning out her list to make sure that it wasn’t just a popularity contest but now that she’s gone I keep finding myself asking myself what could i have done to be a better friend? For almost a year every weekend we were going to the Dummo concerts & having fun. Once I became preg. we stopped hanging out as much & now that she’s gone I find that I just can’t stop thinking about her. Which leads me to another thought
***Random Thought 2***
::Murder:: Why is it that when one person takes the life of someone we love *whether accident or on purpose* we find ourself wanting to become involved in the same act that we found so absolutely horrid in the first place. This David person. Why is that I have found myself spending time & time again since I have heard this persons name contemplating what I would do if only I could get my hands on him for if only five minutes. I then think am I just as bad as this good for nothing who caused so many people pain. Which takes me to ANOTHER thought.
***Random thought 3***
I look at my kids & I think I can’t image loosing either one of them. With this horrible instance we have two mothers loosing their kids. I don’t know what kind of lady David’s mother was/is she could be a druggie/alcholic who beat him or she could be a lovely lady with a screwed up son. Either way all I know is because of this two mothers will have lost their children. I couldn’t imagine loosing Alexis or Minky to either one of these fates. One of course is by far worse seeing as Jacey’s poor mother won’t ever be able to see her baby girl again because of this monster. I just know with the way today is . I don’t know how I am going to allow them to be able to leaving the house , go to friends sleep overs, or even the mall with some friends.

All in all I think for me it’s finally starting to sink in. Jacey is gone. I won’t be going to concerts with her anymore. Nor Will I be riding out to parties in ga with her followed by a 4 hour drive looking for where she was staying at. Concerts in Gainesville or whatever the case may be. My friend who would stay up with you till all hours chating with you because you had a problem. My point is jacey was a great friend. She could be fun & was always there when you needed someone. I have no idea if all this post made sense or not because it’s just some ramblings that I needed to get off my chest.

R.I.P Jacey you’re going to deff. be missed