I could feel I was going down with a cold yesterday and didn't really want to go and drink again but David was coming and I haven't seen him for ages. we had a really good time drinking wine at the flat and then in that cigar bar on Wardour Street which seemed to be the only place in Soho that wasn't full of noisy arseholes. Things went downhill when we went to the Shadow Lounge. I got well and truly pissed and eventually realised I had lost my wallet. This comes 2 days after having lost my phone on a similar venture also at the shadow lounge.
I felt pretty awful today and am seriously wondering how I should deal with this problem. Everyone I talk to about it seems to think I am being melodramatic. Scott said he thought it was part of my health anxiety but alcohol is bad for your health and I drink far more than the recommended number of units. Why is it silly to be concerned about something which does damage your health?
The trouble is that when I drink I just don't care about resolutions I have made previously. If I am having a good time I just think to myself 'I know I only planned to have 3 pints but I'm having a good time!' (dunno though, sometimes I think I would be bored stiff if I wasn't drunk so maybe not such a good time). I do wonder if I should just give up entirely. I still don't think of myself as an alcoholic (alhough according to the AA list of signs I think I am one) I just think that it is a problem.