I wrote a song recently,

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Wreck me Lord, take my whole world apart.

Whatever it takes to draw me nearer to your heart.

Take from me the worthless things that I cling to.

And replace them Lord with more and more of you.

Ruin my pride... ruin my pride.

Rip open my arrogant heart

and pour your grace inside

Jesus, ruin my pride.

Shatter me, spin me around, turn my whole world upside down

Whatever it takes to draw my heart to where you’re found

And I don’t know if I really know what I’m askin’ for

For your refining fire to burn me to the core

But halleluia!! I believe it’s worth the pain,

Cause what I’ll lose can not compare to what I’ll gain.

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My heart is truly shattered today.  Am I self righteous? Please, forgive me. I am wretched.

Does it seem like I’ve got it all together? Like I’ve got this whole "Christian living" thing down? I don’t. I’m an utter fool!

My righteousness is like filthy rags. It’s only by God’s grace that I’m alive.

Throughout my life I’ve needed to be knocked off my high horse on many many occasions, and I know that will be the case as long as I live.

If ever I come across as thinking I’m "really somethin’ special" please know that it is most likely my desperation to be loved. Most of the time, I don’t feel like I’m enough.  

May my heart continue to be wrecked for God’s Kingdom, and may He continue to give me enough mercy for each day....