i'll be going back to salem this weekend.

to finish my degree.

and be with my mother.

i quit my job.

i quit my friends.

i quit my apartment.

i quit maine.

i miss the city.

i miss my ocean.

i miss the people.

i miss salem.

i want to make someeeething of myself, even if nothing matters in the end.

nothing does.

ever.

never ever.

but ahh.

so friday i will buy a car.

saturday i will pack that car.

fill my tank.

and hit 75 on the freeway.

and little old me will go back to the city lifestyle.

the carnies and druggies and gangsters.

the over priced coffee and underpaid work hours and him.

the last STATED is going to be a problem.

if you get my drift.

do you?

and i will be a college girl with a smart mouth.

the daughter of a lost daughter.

the nightmare of a jealous man.

the girl in love with life again.

amandaa