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I have been single for two years now. It hasn't been easy considering for the last 12 years of my life I was almost continuously in long-term relationships. I didn't really know how to be alone. I am not at my best when I am. I use to travel in the beginning and spend a lot of time looking at other couples on vacation together and wish I had someone with me. Traveling alone without a significant other can really get to you. You can't distract yourself when it is only you talking in your head. I have noticed a change recently though. I look around and see couples and say that looks nice, but I am ok. For once in my life I am ok with not having someone around all the time. Don't get me wrong…being single sucks, but I guess I am growing. I have so much I want to do and see now. My mind has opened to new things and experiences and that has taken the precedence. I have been able to think more clearly without my emotions wrapped up with everything I do. I guess you can blame it on the Scorpio in me….we are strong but quite emotional under the surface. I can see a lot more clearly now than ever. I am living life the way I want to with no excuses, no apologies, and just going with what my gut tells me. I know in the long run this might keep me from finding someone. The more "out there" I get, the less likely I am to find someone who understands and has experienced the same. Nevertheless, it isn't stopping me. Not this time. I can't let myself be worried because there is a part of life I believe cannot be controlled. It will be what it will be. I have really noticed in this last trip too all the "couples" that seem sooooo happy fight quite a lot. Why don't they find someone more compatible? I've been there…not anytime recently but in my far past I have. Life is too short to let small things matter. There is a time though when small things add up and it is time to go. I want to be with someone that makes me smile from the inside out. Only a couple of people have done this for me in my lifetime and I realize now that it means everything. If I find someone, that is what is necessary for me to make it happen. Without it, I will continue being a nomad….gladly. I have realized that life is too short to compromise myself.
2:08 PM
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