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Wednesday, June 06, 2007 

Current mood:  grateful
Category: Religion and Philosophy
As eagles flutter over their nests, and with lightening speed, mothers often dive into action, with little more than an instinctive warning of things to come.

Such was my disposition when I stirred myself into a ten-day fast on behalf of my son Christopher, prior to his attack on 1 May.  (see blog Part I & II)

Family and friends are accustomed to my fasting lifestyle.  In our wacky and wonderful family its not unusual for mum to be sipping fresh squeezed juice while the brood devour Sunday roasts or Dominos Pizza.  In fact, over twenty five years of frequent fasting has rewarded me with superior health and longevity.

One of the toughest mental fasts I have endured in twenty-five years, my days were filled with reading, prayer, rest, uncompromising self scrutiny and  gallons of herbal tea.

In much the same way battled eagles draw aside to recoup in fresh spring waters, cleaning wounded wings of parasites to refluff their down, my mind, body and spirit  underwent painstaking soul searching.

Having jumped the nest at thirteen years of age, and with the approach of his twenty eighty birthday this year, I was desperate for answers to the desolation a mother experiences when disconnected from one of her young.

On the eighth day of my fast, a sense of urgency compelled me to attend a prayer meeting at CCC, my church in Oxford Falls, on the night of 1 May. My first prayer meeting since the close of 2006.

The following morning, I accompanied Chris to a court hearing for charges related to graffiti work on a Railway Station.  (Chris is a very talented artist; which I confess I haven't always supported)

Suffering from a headache that began with a healing crisis the day before, I was unable to conceal my frustration when we realised we turned up to court on the wrong day.

Hauling him and his discomfited girlfriend into a nearby cafe, my exasperation gave way to alarm after he confessed he had been in a serious fight the night before.

Hearing he had been held down by two men, while two others beat him around the face; and hit  him at the base of the skull with a hammer,
my mood, like the flip of a coin,  turned quickly to calm tenacity as we made our way to the hospital.

Long-drawn-out admittance procedures are par for the course in over crowded emergency rooms, yet with Germanic precision, Chris saw a Doctor, was x rayed, had an MRI and admitted to hospital within four and a half hours after our arrival.

You know the rest, and the bigger story is still in the telling; however his narrow escape from fatal injury was brought home to me when I came across a hammer in my kitchen cupboard this week.

Feeling its weight in my hand, my blood chilled as I pictured labourers driving steel nails into hard surfaces on building sites.

Choking on my tears as I felt the weight of lost time since he jumped the nest fifteen years ago; it was this burden that goaded me into a fresh season of prayer and fasting, which as it turned out  may have been the catalyst that saved his life.

Saddened as I feel with the lost time, my spirit's recovered fresh resolve and resiliance after experiencing, first hand, that God can be trusted to be an ever present help in our hour of need.

With Divine intervention at our back (no pun intended) and the road to recovery in front, I know, that I know, that I know without a shadow of a doubt,  that when we are circled by adversity on every side, God is like an eagle who circles around us, and helps us, the apple of his eye. As an eagle stirs up her nest, and flutters over her young, God himself spreads abroad his wings and bears us up with his pinions, to set our feet on solid ground.
(Deut 31: 10-11  paraphrase mine)



Written with my sons consent

NB: ANYONE WISHING TO TAKE UP FASTING SHOULD DO SO AFTER RESEARCHING RELIABLE SOURCES, AND NOT WITHOUT DISCUSSING SENSIBLE GUIDELINES WITH A MENTOR, AND AFTER A MEDICAL CHECK UP.




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Kurt Anderson Photography
Kurt Anderson

 
Thank you for sharing that.
 
Posted by Kurt Anderson Photography on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 11:13 AM
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Forrister

 
This is a truly beautiful piece of self discovery and re!velation...

Following our conversation, which I found to be a self revelating moment...one which made me realise that I needed to call my mother a little more often, keep in touch with those one holds near and dear.

Thank you for entering my life Catherine, enriching it!

God Bless

Forrister
 
Posted by Forrister on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 11:17 AM
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Forrister

 
This is a truly beautiful piece of self discovery and re!velation...

Following our conversation, which I found to be a self revelating moment...one which made me realise that I needed to call my mother a little more often, keep in touch with those one holds near and dear.

Thank you for entering my life Catherine, enriching it!

God Bless

Forrister
 
Posted by Forrister on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 11:18 AM
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• Stagger lee •
Lee Launay

 
Glad to hear things are looking up.

xo
-Bop
 
Posted by • Stagger lee • on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 11:19 AM
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wendi bird-the 3 time award-winning poet

 
This is absolutely beautifully written. I could feel what you were saying and feeling. My heart goes out to you and salutes you for your convictions. You are a wise and strong woman! God has sent you here, as well as other places where you can administer help and wisdom where it is needed. Thank you for sharing a piece of you with me.

Wendi Bird - the poet
 
Posted by wendi bird-the 3 time award-winning poet on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 11:20 AM
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Li’nard’s Many Moods

 
Hello Oh Divine One ! ! !
It is always incouraging to read you approach to Spirituality, and to life. This is such an amazing situation with Chris. Definetly one that makes you see, that the only thing that we can lean on, is our faith.

Love you,
Li'nard ! ! ! !
 
Posted by Li’nard’s Many Moods on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 11:27 AM
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Kenny Vegas

 
You sound like a wonderful Mom!! I am curious though... Your son is 28... Um... Did you have him when you were 70?!? :)~
 
Posted by Kenny Vegas on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 11:37 AM
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MakeUaDrink

 
I love your analogy here!
It makes so much sense with the eagles!
Under his guiding yet shielding wing.....we shall follow his path and be protected by his mercy. This is just beautiful Catherine!
 
Posted by MakeUaDrink on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 12:05 PM
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Tamojazz Izzytainment

 
This was very touching.
 
Posted by Tamojazz Izzytainment on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 12:05 PM
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The Official Myspace Page of Author, Lady Eros™

 
awesome post luv! Sometimes we see things a little clearer by someone else's eyes. wow--I was just thinking of fasting myself, haven't done it in ages!
 
Posted by The Official Myspace Page of Author, Lady Eros™ on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 12:09 PM
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i love reading ur blogs, ur writing <myspace>style</myspace> makes the reader really feel like there standing there listning to you one on one. <bR>
its amazing how you can be totaly calm untill you see something that reminds you of something bad :( happens to me sometimes<bR>
Ps: lol thanx for the blog comment, i wrote it ages ago and i forgot it was up :) sorry if it was offending in any way <bR>
<b> _*Troy*_
 
Posted by on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 12:11 PM
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Surendra
Surendra Tapuriah

 
God can be trusted to be ever present not only in our hour of need but at all times. Blinded by ego, considering ourselves to be doers, we refuse to acknowledge His presence. It is only in times of utter helplessness that most people turn to Him. It is to His greatness that inspite of being nglected all the time he does respond to our call.

Fasting is a great instrument for firming the resolve and cleansing the mind as Mahatma Gandhi showed. I fast (with complete silence) twice a year for 9 days. My longest has been 55 days.
 
Posted by Surendra on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 12:13 PM
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The official manager Ron Richardson myspace page
Ron richardson

 
GOD IS A AWESOME GOD CHRIS MY PRAYERS STILL ARE GOING UP AND OUT FOR A FULL RECOVERY AND TO ALWAYS PROTECT YOU THIS IS A CRUEL WORLD BUT THEIR ARE STILL SOME GOOD PEOPLE LEFT BLESSINGS TO YOU AND MOM YOU DONT KNOW ME BUT WE ARE ALL HUMAN AND THATS ENOUGH WE ARE THE SAME REGAURDLESS OF THE COLOR OF OUR SKIN I AM AFOR AMERICAN BUT I FEEL JUST AS YOU AND YOU AS I NO ONE DESERVES TO BE INJURED OR PUT THEIR HANDS ON ANOTHER FOR THAT MATTER STAY LIFTED LITTLE BRO RON RICHARDSON NYC
 
Posted by The official manager Ron Richardson myspace page on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 12:28 PM
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LABSCABIA

 
Im no christian, nor do i value christianity and its life<myspace>style</myspace>, should that EVER be categorised. but when we share our thoughts and feeling, ie truth and opinion through knowledge and wisdom, good things happen. when we look after our bodies and refrain from excess and 'packaged' matter of ingestibles, more good things happen to us. your gods intervention is my good karma. my bad karma is sins manifest.

so we share this.

what we put into our bodies, makes our body do what it does.
what we offer from ourselves, we get back from others. if not all, some.
healthy kindness and all is good.

i am no saint, but nothing bad has EVER happened to me, just to those around me. I do not know what this means. but i am thankful to something..
 
Posted by LABSCABIA on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 12:33 PM
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Mr. Endurance
Ptolemaios XII Neos Dionysos

 
I have been fasting since I was 10. Its part of my religious diet. Fasting is very good for you if you are not a weakhearted individual
 
Posted by Mr. Endurance on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 12:45 PM
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Soul-Finnish

 
Mothers know everything.

Peace&Luv
 
Posted by Soul-Finnish on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 12:48 PM
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As the mother of five grown children, I hear your heart. There is so little we can do once the eaglets jump from the nest. Except---and it is a huge EXCEPT---appeal to the One who says "I will bear you up on eagle's wings." I have also seen so many answers in the lives of my children. Thank you for sharing your journey, struggles and victory's.
 
Posted by on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 12:55 PM
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Anne Sturgill (Princess Anne)
Anne Sturgill

 
Yes do trust that and also know that when you do reach out to others they too will grow closer to knowing and trusting him.

Hugs,
Anne
 
Posted by Anne Sturgill (Princess Anne) on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 01:52 PM
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David Paris
David Paris

 
An eagle can only guide it's young for so long, then it really is up to them and divine intervention. It doesn't stop the feeling of powerlessness which washes over us occasionally - I see it in my own mother when she feels disconnected with me living so far away and seeing the parentals so rarely. Your instinct is still to protect and I understand your anger that you child was in danger and you felt powerless after being informed after the event. The descriptive way in which you told this story was palpable and I felt every motherly instinct distinctly - pretty scary considering I'm a 23 year old bloke! You're one in a million Divine Miss ;-)
 
Posted by David Paris on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 01:58 PM
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JennyKorn
Jenny Korn

 
Wow, thank you for sharing the power of fasting & listening to one's intution. You are a beautiful, strong, loving mother, and you are indeed like the protective mama eagle whose picture you feature above. Your love for your son is touching, and I am glad he escaped fatal injury.

*smile*
JennyKorn
 
Posted by JennyKorn on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 01:58 PM
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4 POUND TONGUE
Onion Cookie

 
Hi Catherine,
There's no excuse for human brutalty, example, let's say Enron...
Do you know how pelican survives? Normally three chicks are hatched. As the grow they demand more and more from the the mother. They fight for the food eventually they push out one chick... it does not return to the nest. it dies. next, the same thing happens with the other two. one survivies, one does, because the mother can not feed two half-grown chicks... we see it as cruelty, brutality perhaps.. but I'll put my money on the Enrons of the world as models of brutality...

Onion
 
Posted by 4 POUND TONGUE on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 02:00 PM
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Anthony Venn-Brown

 
I did 2 40 days fasts......didn't get what i was actually praying for but did get some major revelation......which has stayed with me for years. One was about the life of Joseph......and I used to preach a series on it called 'the trial of the dreamer'. Even though that was 20 years ago I still meet up with people who say they have the tape series and it changed thier life.

you've made me think it might be helpful to get back into some fasting again.

thanks
 
Posted by Anthony Venn-Brown on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 02:12 PM
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MilesRoad

 
Hi Catherine,
Your blogs are always very heartfelt and stirring. I feel as if by opening a door to your feelings, we share your pain and inspiration. It always makes me feel better! Hope you do too? Good luck with your rekindled closeness with your son. Sometimes it takes a catastrophe to open our eyes to the Love that's around us.
Joe
 
Posted by MilesRoad on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 02:32 PM
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W.A.S. a Stripper
Becky McDermont

 
I do believe that fasting helps to protect us from the enemy and it shows the LORD that we are willing to suffer for what we want. I fast before I go into a strip club for outreach and if there's something that comes up where fervent prayer is needed although, I must admit, I've never lasted more than 2 days for a complete fast. I've lasted 7 days for a fast where you eat fruits one day, tea one day, vegie's the third day and then you make a vegetable broth which replenishes your body back with minerals. I just kept on going with it for a few extra. For some reason, it's very important for the Lord to see us do that.

I, too, have a disconnected son which I pray for often. It's very hard for them to speak of there pain or to even admit that there is any unless they are angry. Alot of my son's hurt comes from my own past mistakes and from the fact that his father isn't really or never really has been in the picture. When his father was in the picture, his dad usually hurt him at no fault of my sons. Boys need male role models so much and so many don't have this blessing today.

I enjoy how you've written your blog in 'eagle' fashion. Blessings to you and yours.
 
Posted by W.A.S. a Stripper on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 02:35 PM
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Dear Catherine,
It is always beautiful to hear you tell the story, no matter how difficult the topic, the revelation is now complete. My thoughts and prayers still remain yours.


Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. And today? Today is a gift. That's why we call it the present. ~ Babatunde Olatunji
 
Posted by on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 02:44 PM
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It'sJill
Jill S

 
Brutality and evil surround us; yes, this is a sad fact. However, through constant conciousness of our soul, and with thoughtful prayer to God, it is just as true that we can overcome much of what is put in front of us.
I pray for you and your son. He has been given the gift of life, despite this evil, and the wonders and opportunities he has are still within his reach.
Blessings! Jill
 
Posted by It'sJill on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 02:52 PM
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Aquila

 
I have just recently read a book that accounts the details backwards (forgot the title but will look it up for you). Some times the details remembered carry so much more than while written as they happen. I know that sounds a little incorrect, but in memory we are able to delve much deeper into the reasons for our reactions than concentrate on our reactions alone. I believe this remembered context is the carrier of all stories. The farther you reach back, the more you are able to understand and appreciate the present. Sometimes I look back and think, "I'm glad I didn't screw that one up while nobody was looking"
Catherine, you sound like a woman of amazing strength. This coming in this setting, and me barely knowing you, should not detract from the sincerity of my words. If ever I'm in this space you have been at I would like to know, I could have half your wisdom.
With love
A
 
Posted by Aquila on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 02:59 PM
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BreezyChanges ™

 
Wow I have chills from reading this ........
<----bows to you my friend
 
Posted by BreezyChanges ™ on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 03:00 PM
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Aquila

 
I have just recently read a book that accounts the details backwards (forgot the title but will look it up for you). One of the reason I liked it is because it started at the end and therefore I would not spend excruciating hours wondering what happens.

Sometimes the details remembered carry so much more than while written as they happen. I know that sounds a little incorrect, but in memory we are able to delve much deeper into the reasons for our reactions than concentrate on our reactions alone.

I believe this remembered context is the carrier of all stories. The farther you reach back, the more you are able to understand and appreciate the present. Sometimes I look back and think, "I'm glad I didn't screw that one up while nobody was looking"

Catherine, you sound like a woman of amazing strength. This coming in this setting, and me barely knowing you, should not detract from the sincerity of my words. If ever I'm in this space you have been at I would like to know, I could have half your wisdom.
With love
A
 
Posted by Aquila on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 03:01 PM
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Benny Blanco from da Burbz

 
You are immortal.
 
Posted by Benny Blanco from da Burbz on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 03:29 PM
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Will Freed

 
Thank you for sharing.
 
Posted by Will Freed on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 03:29 PM
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It's all in your Mind!

 
in deed it is a blessing to be loved and protected.
 
Posted by It's all in your Mind! on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 03:35 PM
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Naomi

 
I am also a believer of the power of human resilience. Its an amazing quality to have/ to achieve and be able to use it to better ones self.
 
Posted by Naomi on Wednesday, June 06, 2007 - 12:15 PM
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WoW !
 
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Mercurychyld
Mercurychyld Rivera

 
This is so amazing Catherine, it truly touched and moved me, and lit my heart on fire...God bless you and your family, always doll...you are a beautiful soul! ; )
 
Posted by Mercurychyld on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 04:38 PM
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ken

 
a mother's care, i do miss it so...

k
 
Posted by ken on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 04:42 PM
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Georgette
Georgette Flint

 
Oh My! He's going to be alright isn't he! Geez, I'm so sorry to hear that! Wow! It's like one thing after another isn't it! All n' All I hope everything turns our alright in the end! Yes, us mothers have it really cut out for us when we have children don't we! lol lol
I will pray for him that everything comes out good for him!

I do truely believe what you're saying about God being like an Eagle looking over us! He has been there for me several times when in dire need. Praise the Lord!

Your Friend,
Georgette
 
Posted by Georgette on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 05:06 PM
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Debra D. Griffin, A Journey to Wellness

 
I Love You!!!!!
 
Posted by Debra D. Griffin, A Journey to Wellness on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 05:33 PM
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Gary
Gary Rauschmeier

 
Thank you for sharing your faith.
 
Posted by Gary on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 05:45 PM
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Rhymesoulnice

 
thanks for this .. this is great nice piece love eagals
 
Posted by Rhymesoulnice on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 06:23 PM
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nanny

 
I like your note about fasting at the end. This is very true. And any pregnant women reading this: fasting has been known to start labor, so don't fast.

Back to the issue at hand: a beautiful, honest write. Thank you for the peek. I have a feeling there's a lot more lurking beneath the surface and I like the way it bobs up and down so that we, as readers, can catch glimpses. Great analogy to the eagle.

Thanks again for letting us read. : )
 
Posted by nanny on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 06:25 PM
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Teresa

 
Just wished to introduce myself to you you and your blog again. Fortunate to have met your site on this strange and wonderful thing called Myspace. :) May we pray that all people, especially those adults who do not have a mother's/father's/relatives care, have a substitute for that in their life.


I'm not very eloquent in written word.
 
Posted by Teresa on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 06:37 PM
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Conrad Glover

 
That was beautiful...very nice.
 
Posted by Conrad Glover on Sunday, June 17, 2007 - 07:03 PM
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Nar
Paulette Tilden

 
Hi Catherine -

"He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.
Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall;
but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint."
Isaiah 40:29-31

Isaiah is my favorite book. I always turn to it's verses when I need strength, I hope that this encouraged and lifted you..
 
Posted by Nar on Wednesday, May 23, 2007 - 12:50 PM
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dirtysweeet--ONE RACE: THE HUMAN RACE
mitsi scott

 
I've been very anxious to see how things were going. You have a way of writing that brings tears to my eyes, because i relate so easily what you say to my feelings about my children. I worry so much over my 18 yr old son, the youngest. I'm so glad things are going well for your son, and look forward to reading more of your writing.

I am not a religious person, but i respect anyone who has conviction in their beliefs. I respect you greatly.
 
Posted by dirtysweeet--ONE RACE: THE HUMAN RACE on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 06:54 PM
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Kitty Kat
Sarah-may Chapman

 
just last week a dear friend of mine was beaten because he's gay, I don't understand how someone can beat another human being to within an inch of their life. I hate violence, trult hate it and if there was something I could say to make you feel better I would say it, but as of yet all I have to say is 'look forward, it gets better'
xxx
 
Posted by Kitty Kat on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 07:12 PM
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Chuma Christopher
Chuma Christopher pc Ogene

 
How can I NOT understand? My name is Christopher, and I too ran from the law many times for my wild and wonderful Graffiti in public parks, school buildings and dismal parking lots. I have always (and still do ) love graffiti, and would love to open a graffiti park someday.

I scuffled with many other knuckle heads over the years, and in the many moons and seasons since, have embraced change and worked to calm my restless spirit. It takes time and effort. Your courage and flexible affection will go a longer way (I beleive) if you support Christopher in his artistic pursuits... and teach/urge him how to make business out of it.

When I was much younger, I made my summertime pocket money (and quick weekend cash in college too) by selling posters of my art, hand painted T-shirts, custom greeting cards and such. It put money in my pocket and kept me from most mischief. Maybe that could help.

But this is not about me, even though I see myself in the mirror or your experience. My mother kept me close and supported my craft while disciplining me thoroughly too. She had a wooden spoon in the kitchen that..... aw heck - lets not even go there. LOL

I admit I do not fast often, but should. Perhaps thats why I am reading this. I yearn to be closer to God and my wife and myself. I think this is a time to do it. I will start preparing myself and do it slowly. I need to detoxify from the hectic pace and murky energy that complacency has caused me. Thanks so much for sharing your thoughts. I hope mine help you and others. I will keep you informed of my progress and seek your advice.

With love and light, we remain connected and conscious. Peace. Chuma Christopher Ogene
 
Posted by Chuma Christopher on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 08:20 PM
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Catherine,
I know I posted somewhere how this hole incident as freshed and renew my faith. We are connected and I feel the power of fellowship with my friends here as never before. I feel I belong here with my Dear Friends!
~ Peace~Love~Laughter~
Tony
 
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house of sound

 
Christopher - house of sound misses you!!! :-)
 
Posted by house of sound on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 09:04 PM
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John Cord
John Cord

 
Such JOYOUS news that Christopher is healing well. I hope they catch the guy that hurt him, 'cause that guy is going to probably kill someone someday, if he hasn't already. I am glad you and your family are out of the worry zone. It is beyond tough, and my heart goes out to you all. God bless.
With love,
John
 
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