Holden doesn't believe that Damian is really dying.  I think it's sick that Holden would openly admit something like that.  I mean, seriously, the man has medication why would he make something like a terminal illness up?  What could he possibly gain from that kind of lie- and HELLO- Damian can't be that thick that he'd think I wouldn't notice if he doesn't eventually die, so why would he carry on with a charade?  There's something wrong with Holden to doubt Damian who's been great to me throughout all this drama.  Why doesn't he get that I owe Damian?  Why does he have to make this harder than necessary?

I mean, yeah, it's kind of strange how urgent Damian is about leaving for Malta.  All of a sudden he' s moved the move date up until tomorrow- that barely gives me time to say goodbye to mom or have one last looksie at both my new baby brother and my old crush (Kevin).  It's too much too fast too soon - everything's kind of spinning out of control and I don't know how to slow things down.  The only thing that's certain as of now is that I made a promise to Damian to go with him to Malta and be with him during his time of need.  I can't back out of that promise.  So I'm going.  Tomorrow, apparently.

I'm just worried about how things are going to pan out here in Oakdale.  I mean, Jade's acting strange.  I just found out she's responsible for breaking up Will and Gwen.  I fiercely believe that Will and Gwen will reconcile but Jade totally creeped me out when she hinted that she didn't think Gwen would be around much longer. 

What the hell is THAT supposed to mean?