As I sit here, I am overwhelmed with the thought that I alone will carry the burdens of my decisions, or lack there of.  Staring back at me are all the things to do, the album to make, the shows to book, the newsletters to keep up; the innovation and inspiration of music to hand out. As an artist, ever growing older, there is the constant burden of keeping up, of staying prolific, believing that you still have something to offer. Somewhere, it can become too much carrying that burden alone. Bands are great because at least you have someone to share the joys and pains with. As a solo artist, unless you have an awesome team of supporters behind you, it can be enouph to drive one mad. I am not trying to be depressing, this just seems to be the ever flowing stream of my heart over the last 3 years as I have reached to accomplish something through music.  And, in all this, I have to ask myself over and over again, why it is that I play music as a carrer, other than the fact that I am driven to it. There is that message to be sent, the love of God, the truth of humanitys' insatiability and sorrows and of course the relation to it. There is the hope sung from a broken hearted point of view. All of these things make it reason enouph to keep on keepin on, but the road is marked with suffering. And, as every hard working independant musician will note, sometime the lonley road of music just plain sucks. thank you and goodnight.