So I've lost faith in notion that, well, people give one shit, let alone two. Ok, maybe people give one shit, but dont have a clue enough to have 2. About a year ago I was predicting that in Obama's wake we (those who have all 'fought' in their own ways and forms "The Machine" for a few years) would be the years behind that most of us have for the past few years at large fought. 

All this year I've taken on my prediction as matter of fact. I simply dont sense any actual movement any more. After Obama the messiah, the 9/11 "No Plane" hoax COINTELPRO operation, and watching Ron Paul and the other thrid party candidates get annihilated by the Media, all I sense is more ignorance, apathy and not only disorganization but lack of organization althogether.    

Is it really this bad? Sure, we have some 'new' 'revolution' hijacked by and being conducted by Fox News, that is being adhered to by misguided and uninformed sheep. It was actually started by what I'd consider the remants of what I stand for. Glenn Beck appears to be the ring leader of the 'new' 'movement'. Great. So he's the only one in the Conservative arm of the Big Media who will actually attribute Bush to the current nightmare, but its still a joke in any terms that I'd call a real movement. It's all about healthcare. Were it not for healthcare there wouldn't even be an anti-Obama "movement", in my view.

Go to one of those these-days famous "town hall meetings". Healthcare is all they're talking about. As far as I'm concerned, the healthcare debacle as of recent is yes more of the fed trying to gain more micromanagement into our personal lives, but in reality is small potatoes compared to the actual problem. It isn't THE problem, only the latest symptom. But at the town hall meeting any and every discussion was brought back to healthcare to avoid the bigger picture.

I just dont even sense discourse, or even ranting and bitching about the real issues anymore. Now that I mentioned healthcare, if anyone at all even comments, I can already foresee this 'rant' of mine becoming about such drivel.

The point is I dont even hardly detect the sorts of insights and concerns in The People anymore that I used to. It's like they just disappeared. People used to work very hard in attempting to stop what is best called "The New World Order", which is different things to different people. But whatever it is or was to all of us it seemed there used to be a push against it, by many and large.

I certainly can't exclude myself from this recent state of being lackluster. I just dont sense, despite the economic nightmare we're experiencing on top of the rest, much interest in the sorts of political shit I'd write and repost, let alone the sorts of technological totalitarian context I'd write exclusively. And this is far beyond my own experience in my little world of publishing, I mean all around. Although the efforts within Myspace definitely are an indicator that I'm using as a gauge in this post. I see online and in 'the real world' even more detachment from what we used to call being "woken up".

It's like everyone tuned in, turned on and dropped out, except without the perpetual massive doses of lab grade LSD. I suppose the Truth could be even more mind-bending than a trip down psychedelic lane. It's just that I used to see all the regluar people out there trying to get someones attention with all of the woes of the world. Not everyone was making noise about everything, but people were making noise about at least certain things.

For me its been hard because it seems nobody no longer cares about much that I'd get into that many do know, let alone the details that normally I'm one of the few who even gets into. For me it's tough to spend extreme amounts of time researching and authoring an exclusive article, when we're back in 2002 grade mentality wide and large. Maybe everyone is reeling from the "Great Recession", and genuinly dont have time to think.

I know it has forced me into a constant state of work, in terms of income and survivalist type activities. But a key detail in my lack of motivation towards what I'm ranting about is I spent so many years doing nothing but "this", that I became a n00b in terms of self-sustainment and self-suffiency. So now when I sense an overwhelming flow of apathy etc, I wiegh that towards a lack of self-suffiency, the math of where I put my free time has manifested. For almost 4 years my true hobbies dabbling in inventing technology and electronics morphed into political extremism.

Now I'm even more of that political 'extremist', but it all seems in vein. A year ago I believed there was hope for the masses, like we were almost there, but today I'm back on there not being any hope for them like when I started this journey. Left & Right potilics seem stronger than ever, leaving a middle gounder like me a minority amongst his own race (I'm "White"). In the world of the fringe, 9/11 truthers still hate me because I dont adhere to Loose Change 2nd Edition, and the "Skeptics" hate me because I still demonstrate a "conspiracy". Today being agnostic, Christians hate me for not mixing religious propaganda into every paragraph, while the rest hate me for having once done so while attacking their technology messiah in every breathe.

And so on. The rational mind is beaten and battered out of the binary mentality arena. I have all the files and materials ready to make multiple films. I've given up much credibility in not delivering such. Other than a current computer hardware crisis I could be working on such film(s) right now, but odds are I wouldnt be. For me to make my sort of ground breaking film its the hardest, as each days news implicates the script. I could do it, but to sacrifice the rest of my free moments the way I did for so long seems futile, while I dont even have them the way I did those years. 

So I say why bother? As far as I can see there isn't a point. With the paragraph above, I'm not even trying to turn this post, assuming anybody comments, into some discussion about me. I dont want a motivational pep talk. I just want to see people motivated. I'll make true of my promises eventually, but why sweat it I ask, when it all seems to be too late?