I know I state this quite often, but the people in my life are absolutely amazing. When I fall down (mentally of course) they pick me back up, set me on my feet and brush the dirt off my ass. Those closest to me have held me up when I've needed it the most.
I thank them constantly for the support they have provided me over the years that I have known them, but I still feel that I never thank them quite enough. When I was sick my friends checked in on me, made sure I was alright and offered me whatever they could. I really couldn't have asked for more.
But in the past month I have truly learned who is a friend and who is not, makes me sad a tiny bit. Some people I really thought were here for me and really gave a damn have proven otherwise to me by falling out of my life even if I extended the effort to maintain the friendship.
But for the friends who have been here......I guess my thoughts lately have been more on what I can do to be there for my friends than on what I can do for myself. I genuinely want to see all the people in my life happy because they really do deserve to be happy. And if there is anything they asked of me to help in that sense I would gladly do that without a second thought.
My brain is all over the place tonight... So on a different note..... I put up an away message the other day not even thinking about what I was writing but it resounded with me later in the day and the more I thought about it.
My Lesson of the Day was: Anger is too heavy of a burden. Learn to let things slide and resolve issues fast. Being angry with those you love simply isn't worth it, cherish them for everything they're worth.
I used to hold grudges way too easily, I used to talk shit if I thought someone had turned against me.. I was essentially a raging bitch to some of the people in my life. Although I was always loyal and caring toward the select few people I called my friends. When I went through "that" stage in my life, (it took some time) but I realized that Hate and Anger are such heavy burdens on both the mind and the heart. That realization caused a turnabout in how I treated those in my life, including those who had turned their backs on me and betrayed me. I have been able to forgive some of the people who have hurt me more times than I can count and in the worst ways, but in doing that it not only prevented drama in the future, but allowed me to find resolution not only with them but within myself, and this left me feeling happy and relieved. I suppose that's a feeling I like.
What I can't wrap my head around is how people go through life burdened by such anger, hate and misery that they hurt those they care about most. How can you claim to care about someone when your actions scream to the contrary? By holding grudges or letting the negative emotions like jealousy/greed/hate get in the way you hurt not only yourself but your loved ones in the process. It's all useless in the longrun, it benefits no one and hurts everyone.
Forgive and forget I suppose is what I'm saying
I've just been watching and listening to people lately and I feel like that simple thing isn't something that most have mastered and I can't grasp why. I know it's human nature and part of self preservation, but there comes a point where it becomes self destructive to hold that much negativity. People let it consume them. According to Buddhism anger and negative emotions need to be banished through reflection and mindfulness of your own mind in order to achieve peace and in turn be good to yourself.
Learn to let it go.. for Goddess/Buddha's sake... It will not only be good for you, but good for the people that your negativity is being projected onto.
These quotes just struck something in me so yea ....
Dhammapada
Attavaga(The Self)verse 163
“Easy to do are things that are hard and not beneficial to oneself, but very, very difficult, indeed, to do is that which is beneficial and good.”
(Prince Gautama Siddharta)
“Holding onto anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned.”
I've learned to forgive and be at peace with myself
When will others learn this lesson?
Sorry about the randomness of this post and how it changed from start to finish but this was more individual idea's mulling through my head in the past week than an organized connected thought process. I felt that this needed to be posted somewhere. I don't care if anyone acknowledges it, but I do hope that if someone reads this they at least take something from it.
Blessed Be.