Heroine Slow [8x]
I turned to you, you turned away.
From everything that I'd never say.
Wrote it down, but tore it up.
Recycled dreams could never live up
to the name that haunts my every waking day
and time slips by when high
expectations leaving me be
and I know that this day is worth it
in every single breath I take in.

Is it? Will it be? Should I risk my feelings? Will be worth the waiting? Cause it wasn't the first time. Do you think I should try again?
I'm making it all wrong... I know, but it's beyond me, what I do or not. What I say or not.
It's so hard to open up. It kills me everytime I do it. But she doesn't seem to notice how hard is everything for me.
It's not her fault you know and I uderstand everything, but I can't help but suffer, I can't, I wish I could, but I can't.
In my list of priorities right now, she is at the top of it. Yes, it's so stupid but, again, I wish I could change that. And see that OBVIOUSLY I'm not at the top of hers (and I'M NOT ASKING IT) it kind of makes me sad.
Girl you are so crazy... it's absurd what you're asking her. You need to quit this kind of thing or she'll be gone for good, no friendship, nor anything. Is that what you want?

Is that what I want?
I don't know...


I don't blame her. I don't blame you. I don't think you are a liar and I didn't want to make you feel I think this way. I know you wouldn't off hurt me. But it hurts anyway.
It's like, you are waiting for this thing to happen for so long, and suddenly, you have it right in front of you ad, you didn't ask for it, just dreamed about it and it was there, the chance. So you wait this thing to happen and BUM, it blows away... you lost it... Yeah, you can have it again... will you be strong enough to wait.
Will I be strong enough to wait for it?






Hey... it's not a big deal, it's just a sleep over after all, why don't you just let it go?
well... rationality it's not my call this days. Damn!