"He forgave us all our unintentional errors and willful wrongs, obliterating and smearing out the legal bond of the law that was opposing us, which was an enemy to us, and lifted it away from us, nailing it to his sacrifice like a receipt to a paid bill.  And since he had totally stripped off of himself all the power this world had over him, including death, he made an example of it openly, like a loud parade to tell the whole world, 'Look what I have beaten.'

     "Pay attention in case something or someone tries to seduce you or lead you away like a trophy by way of subtle, tricky ideas that sound good at first but, when truly considered, are actually meaningless, or by empty delusions like the traditional laws, in the way of the basic ideas of the world and not at all like the ways of Christ."

      I'm not gonna lie: Right now, I have no idea whatsoever how this whole renting a house thing is going to work.  As of this moment, I may or may not be a full seventy dollars overdrawn. There is a chance that I am not, but even then, I expect to be overdrawn by at least six dollars, which means I will still have to pay the thirty dollar fee.  I have, and I truly cannot stress this to you quite the way I feel it, absolutely no financial resources. I have nothing to sell, nothing to return, no checks expected soon, no work for sure on the horizon, nothing. Nobody owes me money, and I have less than a quarter tank of gas. I have, please understand, I have nothing.

     STOP! Don't feel sorry for me and please don't feel obliged to send me money.  That is not the point of this blog. 
I have said it before and will again, that faith is not a warm, happy feeling that everything will simply turn out okay and nothing will ever go wrong.  If that's what Faith is, then I have none of it.  I admit: I am scared. Tomorrow I move totally into a house I am renting.  The bills, very real and seemingly very large, are all in my name.  The cabinets are bare of food, heck, of anything as of yet.  Does this sound like a frying pan/fire situation to you too? Because I'm definitely getting that vibe.  I can look around and see the people getting rental assistance from the churches. I see the people being evicted because of nonpayment of rent, eating in the dark because they can't pay their utilities.  I can see those things. I know they happen.  And yes, yes I am afraid of them happening to me. 
     But there is a difference between fearing and being afraid. Do you understand?  I may be afraid of lions, but I do not live in fear of them.  I may be afraid of getting in a car wreck, but I do not live in fear of it happening.  There are many things to be afraid of, but there is not one thing to fear:
I serve a God who promised. 

     He promised that he would provide for me, promised that I would have food to eat, that I would have more than enough, that I would not lack, that he was my portion, that he was my protection, that I would be lifted up and not strike my feet against a stone.  He promised. And so far, he's never broken even one of those.  I know for a fact, from past experiences even worse, I dare say, than this, that he is Jehovah Jireh: the Lord Will Provide.  I know him. I trust him.  He's crazy about me.  Right now, I have no doubt that he will get me out of this mess. There have been too many signs that pointed this direction for me not to be in the right place.  But, even if I am in the wrong place, I have total faith in the idea that He will take me where I need to be.  I'm open to that.  His idea of things working out is totally different from mine sometimes, and I know it.  
     Therefore, I am choosing not to worry. Not at all. If anything, let this timestamped blog serve as proof, later, that he can do things far and amazingly above whatever I can see. I'll tell you that right now, there is no way out of this hole I am in.  Logically, I mean.  I have exhausted everything.  So when he does what he's going to do, you will know: He has, again, done what was impossible.