so i just started this, i dont know if im giong to tell anyone abut it tho. i dont think the internet is realy the best place to talk about things that are realy close to my heart but i dont realy have anyone i can tell without sounding really desprate. i know im not but it doesn tmake it sound better to others

  i dont know maybe ill just come here to rant, maybe i should start one that ppl can go to look at but ill still have this one to complian too.

   here is a question. are guys realy as dense as they seem to be? or are they just doing it on purpose. and should i keep waiting or just move on , im tired of wondering if i have to slap him to get his attention. and then thinking maybe i should slap him just because. the sad part is that just when i let logict ell me that if he hasnt noticed by now that i can start to give it up and move on, but then my heart says something like "wow he talks to you a lot more then he used to!" and logic barely manages to keep me in the place i was in befor. im tired of wondering if i should say something, if i should just make it so that we run into eachother more often. and yet sadly i know i probly never will .ive spent far two long hiding my feelings(at least through actions) from the world to let go so much(but still should i?)