I regret to inform you all that I will not be returning to Mck next year. I just hope you all can understand and don't hold it against me.

As I'm sure most of you know I've had a pretty tough year. Emotionally it’s been a rollercoaster of ups and down. I had some good highs this year meeting some great new people and getting even closer to people I'd only know in passing last year. However, for the first time in my life, I've also had some major lows, including a kind of break down melt down. I had to take a step back and re-evaluate what I want and how exactly I'm going to get that.

While I will miss the people here, I think that it is best to spend a year or two closer to home. Simply to just refocus and decide what it is I even want. I am in no way writing McKendree off just yet. If all goes well I plan on coming back once things get sorted out.

I probably should have said something sooner, but believe it or not, it really is a recent decision.

Hannah - I hope you can forgive me for not being your roommate next year. I feel bad for bailing on you, especially since you've truly been my rock this year. It’s amazing to think that almost two years ago I didn't even know you and here we are today, you being pretty much a sister and best friend to me. You really have seen me at my lowest (tears and all), and yet for some reason you never gave up on me. Your friendship means the world to me. I pretty much owe my sanity this year to you! I will miss rooming with you again, something that I had looked forward to. I will also miss our One Tree Hill nights, the countless laughs, complaining about boys! But there is still facebook and phone calls. You are one friend I don't want to lose, and will put in the work no matter what, even if that means driving to Mt. Vernon for a weekend visit with you and the McDowell family!

Nykole - I know it will be tough, starting all over, without me, but I believe you can do it!!! You also have seen me through some of my weakest moments, but you've also been the reason for some of my happiest moments this year. Who would believe that two complete strangers would become so close so fast? Our friendship was pretty much instant!! You took me as I was, no questions asked! I couldn't imagine this year without you, though you weren't always there in person, texts and chats online only added to our humor. The distance couldn't stop the laughs, and I hope that remains true. I mean come on attacking Joe Jonas and ice packs to the head, or what about vacuuming the wall!! Who else would get me so well? I will come back to visit you and save your new roommate from the Jonas brothers, that’s a promise you can count on!!

Mallory & Bobbie - I only knew you guys in passing last year, yet when I needed a new place to stay you allowed me in with open arms. I know I may have been a little shy at first but you guys made it easy to overcome that. I will miss both of you next year and our suite family, the random chats, one tree hill nights and predictions, the I Hate Valentines Days party and She's Just Not that Into You, playing in the rain. You guys are truly amazing people.

Amanda - Thanks once again for being my dorm mommy. You really were a shoulder to cry on this year and helped me when I needed, even if it was just being there to listen to me or trying to help me sleep.

Jessica - Thanks for all the late nights and your ear to listen. I haven't seen you much second semester, but you were a constant first semester. The late night Game Show Network, keeping you company on food runs for you and Drew, cards, movies, laughs, gossiping about Mr. Hotness (no worries I'm not naming names!)

Liz - Though we kind of grew apart this year and had some very intense moments this year I wish nothing but the best for you next year, and hope that maybe one day we can overcome this.

Bekah - I know we weren't anywhere as close as we were last year, being that our trio was missing a member, but I'm glad we still were able to remain friends. I was worried that without Naomi in common, we would fall apart, but we didn't. Now we just have this summer to look forward to, when the Asian, the Immigrant, and the Roomie Next Door are reunited once again for some messy fun and guaranteed laughs, plenty of photo ops!!

McK Girl Bowlers - I feel like I owe you guys an explanation about this year. While I missed bowling this year, it just didn't hold the same appeal as before, but it wasn't even that. It was all really just in my head. I can’t even begin to explain how I was feeling. I will miss the team and those of you with whom I was close with. I wish you all good luck next season and congrats on a great season this year. I hope one day to return to the team and see all your smiling faces again.

To Everyone Else, you know who you are - thanks for being my friend, acquaintance, confidant, and for just being there. There are far too many people to list individually here but I'm thankful for each and every last one of you. More likely than not, you provided laughs and stories that made my experience this year!

I truly love everyone last one of you!