Another night full of beer and self distruction,

drinking beer and smoking cigarettes with no interuption.

At first i thought it was because i was missing someone or something,

but now i dont really know what to make of this feeling.

I guess its just my way of healing,

the broken man everyone keeps seeing.

But the pain still hasnt stopped,

and all of my feelings still havent dropped.

Right now im just not happy and its kinda got me wondering why,

why everytime i get by myself i just wanna cry.

I'm not the man i once was before,

because for some odd reason my heart feels like its tore.

I just feel as if i have the weight of the world on my shoulders,

and i am having to constantly dodge the boulders.

I hate feeling like this,

and im coming to find out my old self is the person i really do miss.

I miss always being happy,

but its hard to be like that when you feel so crappy.

I guess Im in a state of depression,

with no signs of progression.

Maybe one day i will get back to the way i used to be,

when the good side was all i could see.