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Status: Single
City: Anywhere u find me
State: California
Country: US
Signup Date: 6/9/2006
Friday, December 12, 2008 

Current mood:baffled
Category: Blogging
About once a year I have to address some nasty people about this issue so here is my address this year.  Here are some of the comments that have come my way since posting the video for "What We Deserve" online at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4iEBQ_Ox7CM

le0zar (1 week ago) Look at this stupid clueless bad speeker girl, she has no idea what she talking about... she is brainwashed, stupid mofo... srsly this shit pissing me off, that bitch offend me!

cringo123 (1 week ago) fatt ugly black women!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

upchuck001 (2 weeks ago) I wonder if it's ever occurred to this woman that she could simply choose to keep her legs closed until she finds a decent man. Of course not. She's a filthy horny slut willing to sleep with any filthy horny dog, without a trace of honor or responsibility among any of you. Some women deserve better, but not the ones who are blaming everyone but themselves for their choices. The kind of man they're looking for deserves better than them.

Why do I find myself hating her so much?
Posted by: Christina

So after reading what a pariah I was I wrote a response. Just thought I would share it. Feel free to pass it along or if you find yourself wanting to harass an idiot one day, you too can reply to my youtube video. LOL Have at it!

Hello I am Sonya Renee the author of the performance poem "What We Deserve".

It has definitely been INTERESTING reading an anti abortion perspective on my poem "What We Deserve". First and foremost I find it telling that a significant amount of the response does not deal with the specifics of the poem at all. Thusly, I offer a little background so that you might at least better understand the context of what you are watching. I am performance poet and spoken word artist. I participate in SLAM poetry, which is competitive performance poetry. My poem can not be longer than three minutes and ten seconds. Thusly, there are parts of this piece that you did not see on this video but that address other issues around the topic of abortion including adoption. However, my biggest issue with the comments posted about this piece have little to do with comments about my tone being shrill, or my poetry not rhyming (Actually this piece has heavy slant and off rhyme and it is written in free verse, just so you understand the form) as "good" is always very subjective as you pointed out Mary. Beyond not liking the craft or performance of the piece, which is fine, I take most offensive to a bevy of assumptions about who I am and what I have been through. But just so you have no misconceptions about me let me enligthen you.

I am the daughter of a teenage mother and father who were both addicted to drugs at some point in my life. My moher smoked crack until I was 24 years old. I have taken care of myself since I was sixteen. I come from a background that would imply that I would have and be nothing. 75% of my family are teenage parents, have some subtance abuse issues or severe mental health issues. I am 30 years old, I am the first person in my entire family to have a Master's degree and soon to be working on a dual PH.D and J.D( this is out of 13 aunts and uncles who never finished high school). I run a National Training Program around mobilizing "MY RACE" Heather4life to address HIV/AIDS in the Black communtiy. I have spent two decades working with kids with emotional and behavioral problems, the children who take guns to school, beat up faculty, hurt themselves and others. The kids born to parents who inflicted some of the most heinous abuses against them. These kids are now locked up and some of us still care about them. Some of us believe in their redempton. And I am also (whether you like my stuff or not) A National and International Poetry Slam Champion. I say all of that not to pat myself on the back but to ensure you that I do not speak on issues that 1. I know nothing about and 2. that I have done nothing about.

Make NO MISTAKES I am the exception to the rule. Most kids from my background DO NOT make it out. So let's not be flippant about what it means to " have struggled to better your lives" Mary, because that is what I have done. That struggle allowed me to go back after finishing college and get my mother off of crack cocaine. So PLEASE don't ASSUME that I have spent years throwing a pity party for myself. That would be highly dissrespectful and Grossly inaccurate. However, what I have learned from life is that there are circumstances and situations that take generations to conquer and you can not pass on what you don't have. The pregnancy i had at 19 years old to a boy who knew nothing and had even less, was not about "lack of self control" Heather, it was about wanting to make soemone stay and love me. It was about a manifestation of years of hurt from parents who could not teach me what they didn't know. So let's not over simplify how people end up in the situations that they end up in. If I would not have terminated that pregnancy, i would have likely repeated the cycle my family had repeated for generations. I did not have the skills to raise a whole, healthy child and i likely would have been birthing that child into a life of poverty. It took me years to learn to love myself and not live as a victim of my history, those are years I would have spent raising a child to take on all of my deficiencies. As far as adoption, (which i think is a beautiful thing and rather than birthing, I am planning to adopt two older children in the next few years), until americans stop flying to Europe and Russia and Asia to adopt babies while american children, specifically african american children languish in foster care systems until adulthood; It is an arguement that seems like lip service. Until every pro-lifer adopts a child currently in the foster care system I have little to no respect for their arguement. The reality is No, everyone should not parent. There are children on this planet who came from horrific existences and many of them are the same ones you will be advocating to execute on death row in the "justice" system. However, most salient to me is the fact that until the social and political circumstances that cause women to not want to parent are addressed, we have NO RIGHT TO BE TALKING ABOUT THE MORALITY OF ABORTION! POVERTY IS IMMORAL, RASCISM IS IMMORAL, SEXISM, CLASSISM AND DISCRIMINATION ON ANY BASIS IS IMMORAL. Until we address those issues, until we make abortion seem totally unnecessary to those who have them, to me this debate is moot. And no Nathan, children should not be consequences. They should be wanted and cared for by capable loving parents.

Christina, I do not hate you. I have never met you. I know nothing about your life or experiences. It would be amazingly unjust for me to hate you. Do I disagree with your stance, Yes. Does that lead to hate? NO. Far more frightening than a woman aborting a pregnancy, is the fact that because someone a living, breathing, walking, talking person on this planet does not believe what you believe, you hate them. Where have I seen that idealogy before, World War II Geremany, Auschwitz, Rwanda, Darfur, Kosovo, Iraq. I believe it always ends in war and devastation. Is that what we should birth children and teach them?
Heather, God bless you for getting out of that abusive relationship with your child. My cousin was not as lucky, he shot her in the head and then killed himself. I am glad you had a mother to go to. All of us do not.

To Nathan and anyone else who commented, Trust me I have poems that address those who run out on the women they impregnate, I have poems for young women on how not to become pregnant, how to respect and honor yourself and I have poems about my own personal growth. And yes sometimes they are loud and ranty, sometimes they are quite and introspective. I am not a one trick pony. But most of all I am open to dialogue and discussion. I am willing to hear your point of view and I will never denigrate your humanity just because our opinions differ. I believe that is what is right.
Feel free to contact me with any further comments. sonyarenee@gmail.com
abundant blessings,

Sonya Renee
Beautiful Wisdom

 
Humbleness is a dress you wear well!!!
 
Posted by Beautiful Wisdom on Thursday, December 11, 2008 - 11:44 PM
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Evy T(spiritluvchild)

 
Although, personally, I feel you have no need to explain yourself, your words or your existence to anyone....I appreciate this.. . . . ..Beautiful response.

Hopefully their stupor and/or ignorance, will halt for a moment to give them some enlightenment. And if not, at least enough respect to allow differences to be heard. Most often, we are our WORST enemies, especially the self-righteous, bible toting, hell-bound screaming individuals always ready to condemn another human being for their own lack of innerstanding. . . . ..


Keep doing you mama. Lovely words Sonya....lovely
 
Posted by Evy T(spiritluvchild) on Friday, December 12, 2008 - 12:16 AM
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turd

 
Your video "what women deserve" is the most inspiring, beautiful piece of work I have found in my 10 years on the internet, probably even off the internet. It's a classic. People love to hate, screw em.
 
Posted by turd on Friday, December 12, 2008 - 12:20 AM
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Thundering Word

 
Ms. Renee,
You open doors to sides and facets of me that I had no idea even existed. Your poems leave me emotionally distraut, but in a great way!

"What We Deserve" and "Liking Me" are two really stunning pieces. So is everything else you have ever done. This world is such a richer place with you in it.
You heart-wrencher.
TW
 
Posted by Thundering Word on Friday, December 12, 2008 - 12:50 AM
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Jill

 
Wow, I'm sold. Very POWERFUL piece!
 
Posted by Jill on Friday, December 12, 2008 - 2:49 AM
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ChubNouba
Marshall Watson

 
You know what Sonya Renee? I say fuck them bitches! No way at all to change the minds of someone whose mind is sheltered behind walls made of bricks, brought up by pricks and sold the lie that that you are calling out in your poem. And I say Hooray for you, gurl, tell it like it REALLY is!
 
Posted by ChubNouba on Friday, December 12, 2008 - 3:51 AM
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lolamarya - The Voice

 
wow, your testimony is great. People never know.....
 
Posted by lolamarya - The Voice on Friday, December 12, 2008 - 8:13 AM
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Rameroyale

 
"I am not a one trick pony."

The power of words! I love it!
 
Posted by Rameroyale on Friday, December 12, 2008 - 9:00 AM
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Baruch

 
One of my favorite comedians said If you only have one hater you're not working hard enough, work hard in your life be as successful as you can, and you'll find yourself surrounded by haters.

I sat at the Slam one night when you performed and your words washed me, seemed to cleanse every negative thought I had walked in with that night. Rejuvinated I even called my mother to talk to her about how your poem made me feel, your performance woke me up, your words breathed life into me and at the same time gave me a sharp smack in the face, a smack I needed, I walked out of that Slam competition ready to take life by the balls again and I thank you for your words and for your wisdom.

there are always going to be haters around, or slow folks who don't really understand what you're trying to say. God made a lot of idiot children. But he or she still loves them.

Their words are air, empty. Don't even listen to them. "What we desserve" is an amazing piece.

love always
Baruch
 
Posted by Baruch on Friday, December 12, 2008 - 6:14 PM
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DJ Liquyd! (Saah's Mommy/ SOMBFAB!/ FISH$CALE)

 
Love how you wrote an entire other Epic piece to defend your epic piece.
 
Posted by DJ Liquyd! (Saah's Mommy/ SOMBFAB!/ FISH$CALE) on Saturday, December 13, 2008 - 12:36 AM
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Sonya Renee

 
you're HEE LARIOUS!!! EPIC is WHAT I DO!!! LOL
 
Posted by Sonya Renee on Saturday, December 13, 2008 - 1:06 AM
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Mykie
mykie degraftenreed

 
sonya-
though i have never met you face to face (i've been begging you to come perform in dallas), i will say that i have followed your work for the last few years. the first poem i heard of your was "what we deserve" and i fell in love with your words at that very moment. i have followed your work since that day and as an educated black woman living through the struggles of life too, i can absolutely feel your words and i can sympathize with your experience. poetry/spoken word often is based on the writer's/speaker's personal life experiences. one's that are intense. ones that have, obviously, affected the person in such a strong manner that they feel it is significant enough to prose about. i, too, am a spoken word artist. i'll be damned if i let an outsider take those experiences in my proses away from me. the fact that those people mentioned above have such harsh things to say about your opinions and your experiences actually reminds me of what kind of world we truly live in. these are your words. these are your experiences. nobody can take that away from you or tell you how to release it. i, actually, think "what we deserve" touches on so many issues and dynamics of the things we, as women, go through. you spoke out on so many things that people like to keep silent. your writing that piece was a method of activism, fighting for your rights and standing up for what you feel to be important. that's the value of diversity and don't let another mo'fo take that away from you. your words are beautiful. you have touched many more lives than you have offended. believe that. i am one of them. keep writing and come to dallas to perform. we'd love to have you. in regard to those haters....fukk em boo. fukk em. you are far better than that.
 
Posted by Mykie on Saturday, December 13, 2008 - 3:58 PM
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© v R + ! $
curtis meyer

 
Best way to win over your haters is to love 'em and thank them for their thoughts. Drives 'em crazy.

Missed you at IWPS.

-C
 
Posted by © v R + ! $ on Monday, December 15, 2008 - 7:39 AM
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C. BEa(U)ty

 
Sonya-

thank you...for being unapologetically you.

xo,
RARE
 
Posted by C. BEa(U)ty on Tuesday, December 16, 2008 - 6:12 PM
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Felecia

 
Educate sista! I am so tired of half thinkers; the one line, on track, personal philosophy on a bumper sticker approach to life experience. Thank you.


Does Upchuck even realize that he's gone from a personal assault against who I assume to be you ("she's a....") to a slam against some group of people ("without a trace of honor or responsibility among any of you."). Cover up Chuck, your prejudice is showing.


Most of the comments didn't deserve the honor of your response, but I am glad you did.

 
Posted by Felecia on Thursday, December 18, 2008 - 2:22 PM
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S. Vanessa Enterprises
S Vanessa

 
I came across your page on a friend's and happened upon this blog entry... I have to say thank you for being such a penetrating representation of grace and wit and eloquence under human fire... i look forward to friendship and networking opportunities...

be blessed and peace-filled, sister
S.
Vanessa aka agua sapphire (my pen name)
 
Posted by S. Vanessa Enterprises on Wednesday, January 28, 2009 - 1:42 AM
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Justin David "Killer of Giants" Tate
Justin Tate

 
I wonder if those people on YouTube will ever read this?
I definitely think you defended your point well.

I'm surprised how respectful it was of them.

I'm not sure I'd have the same patience.

God Bless You!
 
Posted by Justin David "Killer of Giants" Tate on Tuesday, April 07, 2009 - 12:26 AM
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