I'm sorry I haven't written on here for a long time. A lot has happened since February. I've lost two friends who passed away. My best friend (a straight guy) moved to Dutch Harbor for his career. Three of my closest friends stopped talking to me and I gave up asking what's wrong w/ me and if it was something I said.

I'm fed up.

I'm burned out.

I'm worn out.

So here I am at age 31 debating what to do next. Actually, I know what I am doing next, but I'm not saying what it will be. No one needs to know, but me.

You know, I let too many years of listening to others and all of these "good intentions" did a lot more harm than "good." Tons more harm. Trust me on that one.

Here's my advice to the peeps younger than me ... Listen to you. Only you know what is better for you. In high school and in college I excelled by listening to my head and my heart. I'm relearning how to do that again.