I was in love with A. And I miss A. It sucks that the both of us don't talk anymore, but how can you deal with someone who doesn't express his feelings towards me at the time we were hanging out?

I really miss his kiss. That kiss always had some spark to it.

I miss my friends K, R and B. They don't talk to me anymore. I don't know why at all. K said he doesn't have time for me. R couldn't handle my depression. B doesn't want any ties to me anymore since he has a boyfriend.

And I'm sorry I was hung up on a friend moving. It was during that time I really needed someone to talk and chill. That's it. I just don't understand why you gay boys are all up in arms when a straight guy is my best friend. If it was a chick or even another gay guy, you would be sympathetic.

All right ... I'm heading to the gym to work out and box. I have a match in July or August. I will keep you posted.