i doubt you will read this but just maybe...

i try over and over to tell you what you mean to me but you just dont seem to understand. or you pretend well one of the two. so here...you mean so much to me, i tell you all the time this was not supposed to happen like this. but im glad it did because even for a moment i was happy. i understand you are going to leave and it hurts like hell now i dont know what ill do when you actually leave. i hope you have fun and think about me. i will be thinking about you every day. hoping your safe. every morning i dont wake up with you i am thinking about you. every night i dont go to sleep with you, you are the last thing in my head. you are one of the reasons i get up in the morning. you are one of the reasons i just keep pushing. i will do anything for you, and you know this. i have showed this to you time and time again. you mean way more than you should and you know to me. your one of my best freinds, my love and everything ive ever wanted.