Ok. Well, there is something about me that most of you people do not know about me. I am feeling reckless, so get ready for a revelation. Many many years ago, (read: 11 years) I was The Other Woman. At the time, I personally did not care what I was doing, because I was pretty smitten with S. Honestly, I thought I was in love with him. And maybe at the age of 16 I was. It was a short, torrid affair, and when it ended, I was shattered. I don't think I ever got over him, and I searched him out on MySpace. I swear I am not a stalker, but I had to know. He is still happily married (I think) and I am ok with that. I let him know that I was sorry for what had happened all those years ago, because karma is a bitch, and I was cheated on.

That brings me to today. My feelings are pretty fucked up with everything I have been through. And it seems that everytime I find someone worth a damn, they are already taken. I always promised myself that I wouldn't be the other woman again. That's totally not cool. But, I kinda met someone recently. It's totally random and all, but he made me feel so good about myself. I say he was just doing his job, he says no. And damn it, he is in a relationship. And I don't know when I will see him again, if ever cause he is getting a new job. And I know this sounds insane cause I have only see him at his work place, and then, only like 3 times lol.

Anywho, if you two are reading this, and I doubt it I just wanted you guys to know that one, I am not over you. I probably will never be. You screwed me up for life, and while I hate you for that, I still maybe think I love you. And two, you are amazing, cute, funny, sweet and you made me feel amazing. Thank you so much for that.

Ugh, maybe I am damned insane. =X