Okay sooooo I just got out of school or atleast until August... You would think that i would be out having fun and being stupid right... Well i am not i mean do not get me wrong i am happy and i have fun, but there are just way too many things on my mind. The big one is the fact that in a few weeks i will be going through one of the most scariest things, which would be a murder trial.... As some of you may remember my aunt was murdered a year ago and now finally the murder trial is here.... Everything just keeps going through my head some good and some bad.... I fear that the person that did this to my aunt might go unpunished which would just break my family apart.... I am very worried about my mom, she can not handle anymore heartbreak..... I am already scared and nervous i can not even imagine how i will be when i actually have to go to North Carolina for the trial... It has been really hard... All of the painful memories and images are coming back.... There is not a day that goes by that i don't think about her.... I miss her so much and there is still a hole in my heart where nobody else can repair it... I miss the good times together and her laughter... There are sooooooooo many things that i miss about her......