Why, hello there. Yes, it is true. I do have my own internet now. Hmm? Yes, we have made honest people out of ourselves and pay for it. And we have cable now as well. What's that? Yes, I know it's about time. Yes, it is pretty awesome.

I came to an epiphany yesterday. (I had him, his throat was bare beneath my hands! No, I had him! His throat was there, and he'll never come again!) I've had a hard time in the past. A sad childhood, and the high school years were terrible. But you know what? Life is pretty good now. I may not have much in the way of family. But I have pretty much everything else. I have a nice, funny guy for a husband. He's not perfect, but neither am I. He loves me, just as I am, and not many have done that with an honest heart. I have awesome friends that I know really like me for me, and they won't just desert me all at once like what happened before during my senior year. They're amazing people with great personalities. I may not have the most friends, but I've been picky and have great ones. And that is what is important. I have two adorable cats. Sometimes annoying, for sure. But I love them, and they love me. : ) I have a new, better apartment. I really like it. : ) I have a job, and though it has sucked sometimes, at least I have been fortunate enough to have one. And I work with pretty cool people. I love my boys in the walmart posse! I'm important to them! And I'm okay with me. Yes, I'm sometimes not thrilled. I have looked better in the past, but I can honestly say that doesn't matter much to me anymore. I am losing weight, and I do want to take better care of myself, but I realize that I don't have to do any of those things. I'm all right the way I am now as well. I'm a pretty decent person. I try to be caring, I'm somewhat funny, I no longer think I'm ugly...I must be doing something right for all these lovely people to want me around. And I think that's the big thing for me. I can tell that people want me around. I always felt on the outside, an intruder before. I know I'm not that way.