Sorry I left yoooou (c)Jojo from Jodeci/Grand Puba

I'm a pretty random dude. There's always something going through my mind at any given point in time. When I got back to la casa from work I just started thinking about what people expected from me throughout my coupla years on this Urf.

I gotta say, I don't think too many people would see me in the situation I'm currently in and definitely not in the situation I was in prior to the current situation. (Follow me?)

As a young McMallzlet, I was either waist deep in a book or drawing some crazy cartoons. I wanted to be a cartoon when I grew up but later I learned that wasn't the best of goals to have in life so I wanted to be an artist. All throughout my formative years I was smart ass, drawing ass Jamaal who would definitely succeed in life. Even in high school I was president of the art club and the only student in Art IV and had plans to major in graphic design at whatever college I decided to go to.

Somehow between then and now shit got real crazy. I struggled badly as an art major, largely because of my lack of preparation from a sub par art program in high school and because of my laziness....or complacency. My grades dropped dumb quick and I got put on academic suspension for a semester.

Back to Harrellsville. Womp womp.

I come back next semester but the hole was dug so deep that I got suspended again.

Again, back to Harrellsville to sit out for a whole year. Womp womp.

I changed majors, changed majors again and finally graduated. I don't think anyone was disappointed in me because I never gave up on some Jim Valvano shit. But I did crush a few great expectations of friends, family and family friends. Especially when it came to my years working at the video store making barely over minimum wage and hardly being able to afford driving to work (this was before gas prices were acting an ass).

I remember as a kid, all my mom's friends telling me that I'm going to go to school, get my degree and be a great success.

So far, two outta three. What I'm trying to succeed at isn't necessarily what they had in mind but nobody's really knocking it. At least no one's made it known yet. It's been a long road but really, the only question I should be asking myself is if I am living up to my expectations.

I'd say I'm getting there, slowly but surely.


One hunnit.