Life is an utter butter cup
with dandelion side cows
milking up the blogosphere
spamming up my airwaves
i turn down the volume
just so i can hear more
the voices in my head are obstructive
unlike clear ringing bells
life is an utter butter cup
no chocolate shell to munch on
teeth chattering nonstop
and im building up tolerance
i take in more and let out less
and I still have no idea what im doing
I type with my eyes closed
these words mean nothing to me
i bleed in black and white
spary and splatter a haiku on the wall
guillotine my suffering
ask me how i feel today
the answers not a simple one
but neither is the problem
life is an utter butter up
something i can bite into
sink my flesh into
delve my body into
romance and dance and trance into
becom one with if i chose to
life a fucking utter butter cup
agonizing, sodomizing, demonizing
not blossom or bubbles
but still flying and shotting lasers
what cute dresses
dont you wish?
i see black under my eyelids
sometimes its darker than normal
the light inside remains consistent
i'll spell check this when im through
augh, life is a what?
oh, and  utter butter cup
what is a butter cup?
life is
whats life?
life is tragic, sad, happy, mournful, happy, pain, misery, happy, tears, scars, happy, bruises, happy, bad advice and happy
life sucks
but i cant stop living it
cuz life is an utter butter cup
melting in my hand
like chocolate
why not in my mouth
you didnt forget about the dandelion side cows did you
I hope not
crucial to my point
the keystone to this riddle
reliable until the very end
youre not reliable
you fink out
youre not even there for yourself
the only person you'll let down is you
everyone loves you
everyone is behind you
but you dont look behind you or ahead
all you see is down
that gravel will stick in your heel
as you walk down those streets
itll bug you for awhile
then you'll forget about it
every once in a while
less and less as you go on
youll  remember its there
itll eat you up inside
that peice of gravel just wont come out
you should of knelt down and  taken care of it
like youre supposed to
ah, i see distant shades of blue in  my eyelids
pressure on the lid
im squeezing too tight
tears will never come
no dog had died
and im not scared enough
scare me
scare me then hold me
ill cry into yourshoulder
if you bite into mine
why does anything matter?
thats a stupid question
moving on
moving on
i wish that was easy
one girl broke my heart
the next couldnt
the next broke me
i broke my heart once
everyone does it once
theres nothing worse
dont flatter youseles
am i talking to myself
i laugh inside
i broke my heart in the shower
thats when it happened
thats when I realized it
i cried in the shower
thats the easiest place to cry
when you cant tell if you are or not
but you still feel the relief
like having the radio on with headphones too
you cant hear it, but you know its there
i dont remember much
much specifically
i dont remember what i was thinking about
i dont want some things
and that makes me better
makes me whole
i want you to pick out that gravel
so you can walk the hell out
i dont know whats what
buts it all good
because i dont need to
i live in the now
and the now is forgiving
the now loves me
did you remember the dandelion side cow?
shes like jesus in a side cart
except jesus is a bad ass gatling gun
nazi  gatling gun
uber cool
what am i waiting for?
what do i want?
i want to be happy
happy is hard and happy is easy
its also not that bad to be unhappy
sometimes i enjoy it
it makes you who you are
why avoid it
its not the same
i dont know what im doing
but im doing it anyways
what feels right
what makes me happy
what belongs
haha i talk to my mom
i have a nearvous habit
ah dur
picking my lips
left my chapstick at my aunts house
she says i do it more when im stressed out
 i thought i did it all the time
i do it all the time
yeah yeah
utter butter cup
i got off topic
what was the topoc?
life?
what kindve topic is that
thats ghey
life is an utter butter cup
in which i dont wish to reside
let me out i say
to the doorman
he is obsitnate in his ways
my attemps are futile
i cannot stop the beating of my heart
i cannot stop the beating of my heart
i cannot stop the beating of my heart
it stops for who
not for you
dotn flatter yourself
it stops for me?
i cannot stop the beating...
what can i stop
nothing
life isnt in my hands
whose hands then?
id like to whoop that guys ass
he sucks
fucking resign man
this chariot is running off course
its been fucked up for a while
your laggin behind
your straying off
what am i dong!
who am i?
what cant i answer that question?
who answers it?
why ask why when you can ask how
how is
how is shit
you are shit
why are you reading this shit
it goes on forever
i set up a loop so it just keeps copying and pasting
a copypasta
jus kidding
i dunno how to do that
fuck i feel like handlebars
and guitars
i feel like aerosmith?
flatulence
masturbation
cats
new books
dissarray
what the fuck?
why do feel like this?
i hate earosmith
im tired
this has gone on for too long
feeling this way has gone on for too long
i decide
how i feel is dependant on anyone but me
and so i fix my problem
i start with me
you can all go fuck yourselfs
enjoy life
its just an utter butter cup
not even worth it
but why stop now
you already made the down payment
you'll lose the deposit if you fuck this up
ill cut to the chase
dont be a loser
dont off yourself
go out, dont do drugs
you probably shouldnt get laid either
but defintily
party
that will come in handy
dont be selfish
some of us enjoy your life more than our own
share
ill let you have some of mine
if you'll give me some of yours
but i wont trade you my banana for that snak pack
fuck that shit
or is the other way around
maybe youre the one the other way around
youre messed up man
need to get you priorities straight
figure it out
what do you want, from yourself
not from them
not from him not from her
not from anyone but you
what do you want
whats next?
hows it gonna be
man i was just about to go to sleep
why the hell did i decide to write
its not even good
its all wishy washy
random
not coherent struture
like glue
but your rubber
and everything i said bounced off
not a damn thing stuck
everything got me though
and i let it
shoulda been careful
listened
my mistake
ive got a scab inside my nose
if i try and pop my nose it might bleed
then i can be all
NOSEBLEED
and blow shit on your face
that would be gross
you would freak out i bet
if you didnt i would be concerned
mildly turned on too
just kidding
youre fucked up you know that
oh god stop me
stop me from myself
im a monster
a monster in my closet
under my bed
i had a lucid dream
i realized i was having a nightmare
tried to fight it
kept coming back
i fought so hard i woke up
did i win?
haha what if i woke up to nightmare
did i win then?
i procasintae
i never finish a thing
...
gotcha
done