And so we're here together again,
Ready to recap on latest events? Here we go.
This weekend was great. Why? Because I wasn't home at ALL. Got in a fight with a good friend... that was a really bad part.
My stomach's in knots right now. I really wish that hadn't happened.
But, once again, I found myself angry that I'd gone out and had fun. Because the fun only makes the pain of home worse. My brother yelled at me, screamed at me, threatened my life several times, told me he hated me on numerous occasions today.
My father made me feel guilty, saying things like 'I know you just want to ditch me now.'
So what? Aren't teenagers supposed to go out a lot? Why do I feel like I need a manual for teen-hood?
So my family hates me, the one person that's more like me than I could ever dream isn't speaking to me. And I feel like such shit that I can't even hold a competent conversation with someone if I tried. I attempted with Max but that crashed and burned. I flipped on him and then ended up confusing the crap out of him when I said I was fucking up majorly and should go. Was I the only one that found the conversation awkward?
And I'm here, knowing I need to do school work but just wanting to go back. Stay up til
morning with Kelly. Fight with Justin and KJ. Talk to Big Brudder for hours about absolutely nothing... It was all just too... perfect.
So... I'm going to go get a drink.
Thanks for your time.