Timeless Death

Staring at your emotionless face
Counting you're smirks
You seem to back away slowly the faster I run to you
But I never seem to get any closer
You stare into the abyss mocking me
An more slow to count the licks of pain
Painful clicks filling my ears and swelling my eyes
The closer I get the faster you go
Always steady and slow
*tick*
*tick*
*tick*
Time is up for me
But you beat strong
Always hanging there so quiet so not to alarm
What I wouldn't give to hold your hand
So I could rip them from you
Break your timeful body in to a thousand pieces
Take your face like a Frisbee and throw you into a volcano
Watch you melt and become nothing
*tick*
*tick*
*tic-*
Victory is mine and now you are gone
But it is short lived
For you still haunt me
*tick*
*tick*


My friend, My love, My valley

If to love is to fall....
then have i stumble upon this valley of love?
I could be lost in this vallys beauty forever....
But....
Will I on day hit the bottom and shatter my heart...
Or...
Will i fly with eternal friendship..
Or better yet....
Will I fall... forever
Always being in love with this valley...
Never wantng to land... Never wanting to stop
But.....
If I do stop.... will the valley break?
Will the valley crumble and erode in to rubble....?
Or...
Will an echo of ting be heard for miles to come..
the only sound heard from my glass heart breaking....
....so....
I stand here next to this valley on this cliff of love...
I ask myself....
Is it worth the pain that may or may not come...
I sigh and close my eyes...
I turn away from the valley... my back to it...
I spreading my arms like the Hawk...
And I Fall...


Because of you

Because of you I believe I might understand the meaning of love
Because of you I understand that just because something is far away doesn't mean it is impossible

If God and all her angles were to offer me eternal happiness in exchange of forgeting about you...
I would live in eternal Damnation knowing what love was...

Your beauty is brighter then one thousand suns
And your love stronger then a super nova

Your laugh makes me melt inside and warms my broken down heart
You make me feel like everyday is a perfect day

Your voice makes my pain leave and my face blush with joy
You make me feel like life isn't so bad after all

Because of you I feel happy
Because of you I feel safe and warm and loved and that life has meaning again

Because of you....
I feel.



What Am I?

If one day I feel like a real person, then until that day ... what am I?

If one day I can treat my lover the way i know I should and the way I wish I could, then... am I a bad person until then?

If one day it's cold and snowing outside and for the first time I actully feel cold... does that mean my body was feelingless before?

If one day i stop goofing off, does that mean I've finaly grown up?

If one day I finaly feel pretty or smart, well... what then?

Will these things make me a real person?

Or am I already a real person trapped in a nightmare?

A nightmare where you can't tell where reality starts and the nightmare ends...

How am I to tell?

How is one to tell when nightmares are more real then reality?

Pain, fear, sadness, happyness... I feel more emotions in my dreams then I do in real life..

I can only dream about feeling them....

When I dream it's like a new day

Memories are blurred and emotions are tangled

Trusting people is very hard....

But it doesn't mater what happens in real life...

My dreams are just as real if not more so....

It's hard to live not knowing night from day, truth from lie...

But, if one day.... one day I feel like a real person...

Then what was I before?