Well I finally did it. Been needing to for a while. I called the doctor so I can get with him and so he can refer me to a (hopefully good) psychiatrist.
I've been having "issues" with my depression and anxiety/social phobia for the past couple of months, but have been in a state of denial, not to mention all my overwhelming feelings on inadequacy. Thus my attendance at work has been afffected, causing me to be more broke than I should be. I think I may actually be in the wrong kind of job, as I am just around to many people at one time. I've come to the conclusion that I may be better of 'behind the scenes', such as being back in a stock position. But with the way things are with the economy, jobs just ain't out there. Trust me, I've been looking! The only hope is that something will open up at Hallmark and I can vie for the position and get it. If that means going back to second shift, then so be it.
But anywho, yeah, I'm going to see the doc, finally. My mom has been sorta on my ass for this. She shall be pleased. I need to get my act together, find out what's 'wrong' with me, whether or not it's time for new meds, or a new diagnoses? I dunno. I just wanna get back on track, so I can be better off financially so I can go out and do the things that truly make me happy, such as hanging out with the friends I've made, con wise. Something tells me that NYCC may not be happening this year....but we'll see. I do believe in miracles!
I need to start feeling better about myself. I need to stop being so afraid of the world. I need to find some ambitions....damnit!
Wish me luck!
May the Force be with you all!