I never really knew as a child what I wanted to be when I grew up.  I always wanted to model, but felt I was too short and not pretty enough.  Then I just wanted to dance, but I realize now that dance, for me in high school, was a way to escape my home life and actually have friends.  My dad was ubber strict.  I see now that it is still my heart and soul, but not a practical thing to be chasing @ 26.  I remember at about the age of 12 deciding, since I didn't have a clue what I really wanted to be, that when I grew up I just wanted to be me.  And I think I've done a pretty good job of letting me develop and become, well, me.  But that ain't payin' the bills or letting me finanically get to where I would like to be.  But the problem is I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up.  How is it at 26 I still don't have a clue of what I would really like to be doing for a career?  I have little things that can definitely help me along the way like modeling(I finally figured that one out), becoming a yoga instructor, bartending, etc.  But all of this is such a juggle and it puts me everywhere on the page sometimes.  I do love not doing the same thing day in and day out though.  Ultimately I just want to be happy and be able to afford to live on my own two feet.  I want good, no great health and dental insurance.  I want a nice place to come home to.  I want to drive around something that I'm not affraid is going to give out on me at any moment.  And I want to travel.....everywhere!   

But I have to go to college first cause I realize in order to get anywhere in this country in the 20th century you have to get a degree.....really in anything.  Just so you can put it on that app.  Doesn't really matter if your degree has nothing to do with the job you are applying for you will get offered a better pay because of it.  But I WANT A DEGREE IN WHAT I WILL BE WORKING AT.  I don't want something I'm not even going to use or be interested in once I've gotten it.  And I hate the thought of debt.