Ive learned that the heart is a funny thing. Its a strong muscle prolly the strongest muscle in your body. When you think you cant go on anymore your heart finds a way to push through and survive it and when your mind keep thinking you had enough your heart keeps tell you not to give it up it always comes through for you in the end. I remember the day I thought i would never get through but my heart wouldnt let me give up and got me through it....

I remember the day u were gone out of my life for good..so many emotions running through me at one time. confusion, anger, depression, and many more I can't even begin to explain. January 17, 2005 will always be marked as the worst day of my life. I remember the last night I had with you, the last time I saw you, the last breath you took in front of me And it cut me like a knife when you left out of my life. All of it I remember with great detail more detail than about that one night than any other night. I remember I went out with bubba, Jenna, Robert, and rance to hang out. We were goin to light rode in Summerville that night. I didn't wanna go so I said jus take me home and ill say yall went to blockbuster. I got home and watched the food network with you it was the iron chef that was on and it was almost over so I layed on the living room floor and finished watching it with you. You asked me to call them and tell them to get home now you were ready for bed and wanted your car back before you went to sleep. So I got up and called and they said they were heading home now…30 minutes later they still weren't home and I called them again they said they were almost home…30 more minutes later they still weren't home and I had fallen asleep on the floor watching the Iron Chef. You woke me up and told me to call them and give you the phone so I did. when you were done with the phone u asked me how to end the call I said just slide the phone down an she said ok well im going to bed goodnight I love you. those were the last words I heard from her and the last words I said to her was I love you too! About 6 o' clock my brother came in the living and watched TV and woke me up so I got in my bed. at about 1030 Rance came in there and told me to wake up your granny might be dead I said shut up rance that's not funny he said im not kidding that's when I heard my brother screaming at her to wake up and she never woke up. On January 17.2005 my grandma passed away and was out of my life for good. I wish she wouldn't have left me I still need her to help me and be here for me when I need her. she could have helped me avoid making some big mistakes in my life. I had to get this out even tho it tore me up in the inside to write all this and go back to that day. I wanted my grandma to be there to see me walk across the stage and get my diploma, I wanted her to to see my and my basketbal team go to the state tournament to see us win all those championships and to watch me play me last game at the state tournament my senire year I wanted her there through everything.I love you and miss you so much granny RIP.