I can't sleep as usual. Not dreams, but nightmares plague my sleep and leave me awake and crying. What causes this? Could it be the movies I watch? My myspace page? Or past memories haunt me not only when I'm awake but also in my sleep? I toss and turn and no matter what side I wake up on its all the same the empty cold feeling left from my nightmare. Vivid and in color. If I told my dreams to you I fear you to would have these horrid curses. I feel like I'm in a bad freddy movie where I can't fall a sleep for fear of the out come. Who knows why I have them.... They started after my father passed away and they have continued. Not as bad as when they started because I would wake up in screams and not so much just sobbing which is now. Maybe I will have relief one day, but for now pain when I'm awake and torment while i sleep.....~CJ