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Gender: Female
Status: Married
Age: 35
Sign: Virgo

City: SE
State: Missouri
Country: US
Signup Date: 6/29/2006
Tuesday, February 03, 2009 
WELL...  This shunt setting
is (duh) not working.  Its too fast.  Its draining too fast.  He's not
grossly symptomatic yet but my gosh its obvious ITS NOT WORKING FOR
HIM.  I don't need a NEUROSURGERY DEGREE TO FIGURE THIS OUT.  Last
night we went and got our taxes done, just hubby and I, and on the way
home I got to thinking about our appt. coming up tomorrow.  I started
thinking that yes, this is stressful.  Yes it is hard on our nerves,
our family, our relationships.  BUT..I stopped, and I thought how this
has PHYSICALLY stressed his poor brain.  2+ months of things being
'off' in his brain.  I cannot imagine how his poor brain is physically
taking all the stress to it.  I mean this is all very real to me, it
all affects ME but the symptoms don't happen to MY brain.  the
surgeries don't happen on MY head.  Its not me waking up from
anesthesia, dealing with the pain, getting back on my feet.  ::crying::
Its too hard, it feels unneccesary.  I feel this doctor is erring on
the side of caution a little much.  3 months to a 50something
neurosurgeon is nothing.  3 months to a 12 year old is a lifetime.  3
months to a worried stressed mom who is watching him like a hawk day
and night is an infinity.  I want to kiss him, make him better, soothe
him, comfort him.  All he gets is "lets wait and see" "lets try this
again and again and even again EVEN THOUGH IT DIDNT WORK THE 1ST OR THE
4TH TIME".  I've made a call to see if they are even considering
replacing this shunt this week with a different type.  I want them to
know we are willing to go to the appt. and be admitted and change it
effective immediately.  We are not content to wait any longer.  Even
Jordan is willing to undergo surgery again to get things right.  I
can't even lightly make the decision to get a tooth pulled, I cannot
imagine the frustration behind willingly doing a brain surgery.  But
its to that point.  We are losing faith in our most important doctor
and thats not a good place to be. 



In other news my washer froze up literally during a load of laundry today.



I think I'm getting an ulcer.



SO to recap, we need to schedule-

shunt/brain surgery

Jordan a dental surgery

Jordan an eye surgery

Cody has 6 cavities to get filled

Jordan and John have sealants to be put on

A fairly large remodel I don't know how I'll afford...My
bathroom/laundry room is falling down.  My toilet barely functions and
leaks all around it.  My bathroom sink leaks around the faucet AND the
drain.  The floor is showing through and soft and fixing to be falling
through.  My washer is froze AGAIN. 

My car got stuck about 10 times in the snow and now keeps dying.  My truck has a busted radiator.



Did I mention my possible ulcer?



Please pray for Jordan.  For me to keep my sanity.  And my job.  Sorry to just vent & run  :(

xoxo melzie

3:56 PM
 
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NANCY
NANCY BOUT

 
Melody,gosh My heart TRULEY goes out to you.I am going to pray tonight,for you,Jordan and family...all these problems are just SO unfair.You know what makes me feel sick,The government spends BILLIONS upon BILLIONS on "fixing Iraq" rebuilding "IRAQ"..what about US?THE AMERICANS??
HEll..the money they spent,we could EACH,and every single AMERCIAN get a lump sum of 1,000.000 dollars a piece..EASY!Its not fair...truley its not.That would fix the economy,people would shop,buy cars,etc..instead they bail out the rich and leave the poor alone.I'm sick of it.I'm sick of being poor...i'm sick of it all. No,my washer isn't frozen,but Yes,I'm stuck here,in this area,where its polluted with drugs and wild stuff.I want to just take my kids and run.Here there are 12 and 13 yr olds smoking crack allready.I hate it hate hate it.

AND you would NEVER know,just driving through..Its sad. NJ is just a big party state(drug state) In my opinion...like Chigaco,Seattle,etc.

I hope things look up for you and soon.I wish Billy lived by,your floor is EASY PEASY to fix..rip off the linolium and lay another one down,& they are not that much $.
The faucet is not hard to do,if its dripping,maybe its the washer?Or an old faucet. Do you pay water bill??if so,that has got to be fixed.

OH we have to DO OUR RAILING by WEDNESDAY OMG,or we're goign to be fined 2,000 a WEEK.

We were told its OK,and NOW we get this letter?It makes NO sense...AND to contest it,I have to pay 500$ and may not even WIN.SOOO I have to buy a railing for my steps,and install..lovely!
::picking off my money tree::: I HATE being broke:( hate hate it.I have to do my taxes.

Tomorrow is a busy day..again.

Happy Valentines Day sweetie!

 
Posted by NANCY on Sunday, February 15, 2009 - 3:27 AM
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