so im not sure how i am right now
its almost 5 in the morning
i havent gotten any sleep the past 2 nights...
ive been up for about 36 hrs straight now and
well im probably not going to be getting any sleep anytime soon
i am beyond stressed, i dont know what to do to
and there are so many different thoughts running thru my head
and a lot of it is just stuff that i havent gotten off my chest
stuff i forget about and until i think of it again

life right now is just pissing me off though,
i mean im at my happiest moment and everything is good
i have the man of my dreams, and i seriously couldnt ask for more
but for some reason shit always has to get screwy with me
i can never be completely happy and thats it
i just want to be able to sleep, to be able the make the thoughts stops
to make the tears stop falling