This is the final week of "Rockstar:Supernova", and although i enjoy the show for it's entertainment value, it brings back painful memories of blowing the audition for the first season. Not only was i quickly overlooked (not even a f*cking call back) but it pisses me off that some phony talentless hollywood types were taken more seriously. What angers me the most is the fact that i'm going to have to go bust my knuckles working on stupid cars tomorrow for a pittance while those hacks are making a living with thier mediocre at best cover bands. Sounds bitter? of course.These jerks didn't even turn a head when i said," oh my god, that's Tim Farriss!". "Who?" was the only response i got. How could they be so ignorant of the very band for which they were auditioning? Of course, i had the stupid idea of playing one of my original songs, sandwiched between the most boring acoustic "Listen Like Thieves" and a karaoke version of "Need You Tonight". The only reason i auditioned for a reality show at all is that INXS is my favourite band ever. Of course i would have done it differently if i had it to do again, but OH WELL. I would have played something from 90's INXS. It broke my heart when my namesake choked on elimination night because he didn't know the words. How the hell do you not know the words?!!?? INXS' best stuff is on the last three albums( before Switch). Don't get me wrong, JD does an awesome job and i love the new album, but I am a bigger fan and wanted it more than anyone. OH WELL. Life goes on and you can't change the past, so now i am more determined than ever to make the best album ever and rock this whole world a new one. I have new angst to inspire me. Again, i must state that i love the new INXS album and JD Fortune deserves the job more than anybody on that show. I do think Marty Casey is also a great artist, but JD was the better choice for that band. How much longer do i have to suffer for art? Probably forever, because, as my good friend John said," art without suffering is called crafts."

A couple side notes : the karaoke version of Need You Tonight was actually pretty cool. This kid was so quiet and shy, but onstage he really went for it.

i probably had a fair shot and blew it, no fault to anybody but myself.

If Lucas wins this season, i have more evidence that the whole thing is fixed.

I'm trying to understand Dilana's lyric "my scars have healed"???? aren't scars permenant? like the Poison Lyric,".... the knife it cuts you, the wound heals, but the scar, that scar remains.."

one more thing: feel free to comment with brutal honesty, like anyone's even going to read this.