I found out just when we strived to become 'the light', it is very hard not to be selfish. My head is telling me to do the Sox job, rather than doing a PriceP EmDer. My heart is telling me to do the right thing. I guess, at the end of the day, i leave the decision to YP to decide should i be pulled out from the Sox.
Frustration came out easily when we are not in control.