I feel stronger and stronger every day! I really think that I can do anything I want to! It's so cool because the more you conquer, the more you realize your strength...Even conquering being still or being quiet allows you to see you are capable of doing something you didn't know you were capable of doing because I swear, I didn't know I could shut up! Somtimes life throws some crazy ish in the game and most will turn and run when it seems like it's too much to bare, but I understand now that that's the very moment that is most important! That's the time when you find your strength, when you realize your faith, when you become confident and when you grow!

This month was one of the most challenging months I've had in about 5 years! No one particular thing happened to me, but I was overwhelmed, stressed and I just didn't want to deal with people at all, so I didn't. I shut everybody out and I just dealt with myself. I had so much stuff that I wanted to do, but my body was so exhausted, I couldnt' manage to do much of anything...I was emotionally drained and phsycially tired most of the time. I wasn't sad or angry, but just empty. This was really difficult for me to swallow since I am usually so motivated and energetic...At first I struggled with it and still tried to conduct business and relationships normally, but it wasn't long before my efforts were just exhausting me even further. Finally I had no choice...it was no longer up to me...my mind, body and soul were tired and needed some serious rest to rejuvenate.

For two weeks I did the bare minimum to make it through each day! I slept whenever my body said sleep somedays I slept for 12-14 hours...I didn't answer my phone...I journaled every day because it always makes me feel better...I completely and totally surrendered! I had no more cards left in my hand...There was nothing I could do except have Faith that I was going through a needed process. That I had something to learn and this was the only way I was going to get the lesson...Today I am so renewed and rejuvenated I almost feel like I am going to BURST at the seems! And in that lesson I learned patience, I learned moderation, I learned to have faith, I learned that no matter what I think...I really have NO control over this thing I call life...most of all I learned that life is short and you really never know when something drastic may alter it beyond recognition, so I need to enjoy it every day and in every way that I can!