Contemplate

(http://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/Contemplate)
Verb
to contemplate (third-person singular simple present contemplates, present participle contemplating, simple past contemplated, past participle contemplated)

To think about something in a concentrated manner or for an extended period of time. To think deeply about something; to ponder or consider.
I contemplated doing the project myself, but it would have taken too long.

I hate this word. This means I have done somethign wrong and am thinking over how to correct the problem. And needless to say I hate when I am wrong.

Okk..so now to the root problem..

I have become more and more short tempered of late. Given a slightest excuse and I lose my temper at house with my parents.

Its been now going on for a long period of time. So how to avoid it ???

Lets start a small game.. I am gonna give 1 point everyday on every instance I loose my temper and would do a sum total every weekend..Lets hope to start with I manage to keep the score to 40. I would keep updating almost everyday's status.

Monday
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I dont remember honestly losing temper. Lets still give 1 point..