Heyy..its me jill, uh ive never really posted a blog before but. then again i havent really had a good enough topic to write about. but something happend a couple months ago that changed my life forever..i was 5 weeks when i found out. cant remeber what day exactly. but i was sitting out in my car listenin to my music ok? with my knees tucked up to my chest, my cell rings and i kick my legs down real quick because i was waiting on an important phone call from my best friend ashley. and for some reason, when i put my legs down, it HURT bad.. i freaked out and started crying:( ashley statred asking me a SHIT load of questions.. omg it hurt so fucking bad. then i got to thinking...that wasnt a muscle i pulled lol thats never happend before, so i mite as well just go get checked out. but before that i had to get a pregnancy test anyways because i was really worried about it in the first place. soo i asked her nicely to take me into kriesler drug store to pick me up a test, walmart was to crowded and i didnt want everyone and their fucking mother knowing what i was in there to get. soo we rushed into the store.. bought an ept test lol of course, asked the cashier where their potty room was. took the test.. and as i was taking the test and looked at it.. it said Pregnant. with a little fuckin smiley face by it.  about that time. ift felt like i was being slapped in teh face with reality, i didnt know what to think.oo it was BAD lmao we started out all fine and happy walkin in there. but by the time we left.. ashley was dragging me out.. basically carrying me. everyone who saw us go in there with the test and saw us come out had to know what the test had said...i know what your thinking.. lol i really dont care right??

well.. nothing really seems to matter when something that big comes into your life, i mean.. what choices to you really have? opposed to killing the poor thing.Fuck the Fucking heartless sons of a fucking WHORE who would ever do that to their unborn child. they wouldnt deserve a life if that was their desicion. i myself.. this last fubuary.. i went through surgery. they cut my from hair line past the belley button. i had an ovarian cyst the size of a basketball. my doctor recomended me gettng an abortion because of how much it was goin to be a danger to me.. but i objected. it wasnt my babys fault it was concieved. and it shouldnt have to be put away. if anyone should.. i think it should be me.and the only reason i was having unprotected sex was because i had an ovarie removed, and i didnt Give a FUCK. thats y.. i only had a 50 50 percent of ever getting pregnent in my life.but i broke the 50 in less than 5 months......im not unfortunate, im going to love my baby unconditionally. no matter if the father is a COMPLETE ASS FACE. i hope your reading this Fucker. i fucking hate you:) o.. anyways lol its been really hard. i lost both my jobs.. no money right now atleast.. but i know everything will work out for me and my baby:) im beyond excited.. and im praying my baby is strong and healthy.