And I don't know what else to say.  All that I know is that I am most eager for my life to begin.  I can keep going, and going, and going forever and ever... but what would that accomplish?  It is time for me to do what I was born to do.

So, Tom... when the hell are you gonna show up in my life and trade that silly "stand-in" of mine, Katie Holmes, for the real deal: ME?  I know that there is not a whole lot you can do... The Plan dictates your every single move.  But enough is enough already. 

I am so tired.  I am so lonely.  I am so BORED.  Only a cold walking corpse would enjoy a life such as the one I am forced to call mine.

I am alive and breathing and very much full of life... despite all supposed evidence to the contrary.  I am NOT dead... I am a miracle that the world needs right NOW.

I know that all the way back in the 1970s, I approved this bogus plan that we are all now stuck following every detail of.  I approved it not knowing every sickening detail I would be forced to endure until the bitter end.  Ross and Daddy promised me that although I would not at all like it, such a plan only would show me the highest of honors.  And because I trusted Daddy and Ross with all my heart, at the age of 9-years-old, I approved it. 

For the sake of Kosen-rufu.

If I had known all the many silly hoops I would be expected to jump through, again and again, much like a rodent inside a laboratory, I don't know if I could have ever approved such heartless cruelty to Claire... at age 9 or at age 42.  Thank goodness it is all for the sake of Kosen-rufu... or I don't know what I would do.

I would give even my life for the sake of Kosen-rufu (a.k.a. world peace)... but, in my case, that does not seem to be any kind of possibility... and I am most sorry to all of those out there that wish otherwise.

So, as we do not have any choice... please allow me to do what I was born to do!  NOW.

And for the record, I thought Tom gave an absolutely brilliant performance in Lions for Lambs.  That courageous film, one of so many co-written by me and Ross back in the 1970s, gets my bravos!  Merle, as usual, was simply superb.  Robert, so real -- the character I most related to.  How could any critic pan such a well-done masterpiece?! 

Thank you for all for making that film right now.  Perhaps when the world can finally comprehend the vast, mysterious law of cause and effect, they will have more appreciation for your crucial efforts.

I know you did it for me, Tom.  Thank you.  I love you.