Been a min sence I posted on my blog, so thought I would. I heard from an old friend yesterday and it got me thinking about the past. More spectically about who I was then, and who I am now. I wonderer where the differance in myself really lay. So I figured I would write it out and then see how I felt about it LOL.

Well me of the past was a "NEXT" kinda guy. What I mean by that is everything in my life was only there for a moment. Not just girls though. So when I was done with something (grils to) I would drop them like a bad habbit. Then be ready for the "NEXT" thing or person to come along. Also the guy of my past was sorta of a player (kinda sad tho). Lastly me of the past felt a need to never be sober, all be it drunk, high, whatever. Sobriety was not for me.

As for the me now. Well now I wanna start a family (I better want it LOL). I am no longer a major fan of constant change in my life. Not to mention I am now a one woman man (god damn she moves the earth for me). The other major differance was the partying. The me now rarely gets drunk, not to mention I rarely get high anymore. Also I never do anymore then smoke the bit-o-dank unlike the old me (who did any drug, anytime).

I look into the future with Lauren and my mind becomes clear as to what side of me I like the most. The new Kevin (althought probaly a bit more boring) is the exact person I wanna be. Hell if it wasn't anyone that knows me, would tell you......if I didn't wanna do it....I damn sure wasn't going to. I do know that I still enjoy smoking a fat blunt or bowl of good dank or dro ect ect. But will never again go back to living my life in a blurry haze of sex, drugs, and nameless people. So as much as I hate to say it. Kelly, and Gina did make a positive change in my life. They changed who I am, and will always be. Cause I am no longer the Kevin they knew. I guess that leaves few who now know me inside, hell prob only Mark, Syd, Lauren, Rick, and Kid prob know me at all anymore.