Aw hun. You didn't do anything to fuck up your life - you got handed a hell of a deck of troubles, and you're handling them well. Just try to take each moment as it comes.
I know you don't mean us, but you do still have people like Risa, Brit, (BC Beneke [Idk his name]), Allison, and me... we still care about you and you cant do anything to change that.
Nothing's wrong with you, except that you're facing a lot of obstacles and you're human. You should be proud of the strides you've made.
Again, we're not all indifferent to you - some of us truly love you and could never turn our backs to you.

LOVES!!! ♥ Laura
 

Baby,

Laura couldn't have said it any better! I may not drop in and message you that often any more but you know I'm here. That I'm only a message, Email or Phone call away (or text message when my phone is on and charged too *LOL* Brit's better at keeping her cellphone on and charged..must be a pre-teen thing *LOL*).

Still, I'm around baby, just dealing with my own depression at the moment since loosing my grandfather the 25th (just shortly after midnight and the day after my own birthday no less) so I've not really been one to offer comfort to others right now. Still baby you know I'm never going to turn you away when you need me and............if your still able to come this summer; you have a place to stay for as long as you need too. (Course you'll just have to deal with all our nutty critters *LOL*)

It's going to take time baby and I'm sure the therapists told you that too, Depression is a state of mind that only the mind can fight if it wants in order to heal. Just remember that you do have people who are here for you and will ALWAYS be here for you.

Love you always baby,

your Sudo-Mom Risa
 

I know depression well. The best thing I can say to do is to write about it. Seal the feeling into ink and paper and it changes from what it is into a strange sense of accomplishment. Until the next time the monster rears again. Happiness is hard to find, but the waiting makes it all the sweeter once it does arrive, you'll have to trust me on that as I know right now it probably sounds like trite rubbish. LOL

Cheers,
r.
 

It doesn't go away Sabrina... it needs to be put in it's place. You are you, you are not your depression, or your other issues... they are a part of you. You have a distinct advantage over me when I dealt with the worst of my depression issues darlin. You have great friends like Laura. My best friend was dead, and so was a big part of me.

That is the reason why I will never let you be alone on this one kiddo. No one goes down on my watch. We might fall, we might fail, and we might fall apart, but no one goes under ground.

It's been a good month since you were depressed. Well think like this; this time it was a month... next time it might be 6 weeks, 8 weeks, 10 weeks from now. You know it will happen again, but you will get stronger. You are 10 times better of a person than I ever was when I was your age, and you have people in your life that love you.

It's taken me a long time to come to grips with things, and truth be told I'm dealing with a pretty severe bout of depression myself right now. It's beating my ass up pretty badly, but it won't win. It's a part of me, IT does not CONTROL ME!

I wish it didn't have to happen, but it does, and so I have to make peace with my demons... all my irrational fears, my lack of energy, my lack of drive... I need to start working out...

good physical health helps better mental health. The cold weather, and the snow isn't helping so much, but I can only hope that you understand we have to work together, we have to work alone, and we have to work... Anything can be accomplished if we put in the effort.

I mean you are a beautiful young woman... the world is right there for you... all you need to do is learn to love and trust in yourself like we all do in you, and you will find the strength to get through anything, and everything.

You are very special to me... the little sister I never had, the daughter I wish I could raise over so she didn't end up feeling so alone.

You are a good person. I'm a fantastic judge of people. I was paid well for it, and I see you, and I know you are a good person... you just need to believe in yourself, and find something to believe in in general.

You are in my heart, my mind, and my prayers

Brad Beneke
 

DEPRESSION GO AWAY
DEPRESSION GO AWAY
DEPRESSION GO AWAY

Don't let the star of misfortune get to you, It's not your fault, just keep your head up and keep on trying. Your friends love you and we will be here for you, *hugs*
 

There isn't much else to say that hasn't been said. I just wanted to reiterate all that has been said. You have friends that love you, like me. We're here for you. No, I've never had to deal with what you're dealing with. I can't begin to empathise, but I can sympathise. And you are a wonderful person. We all know that, trust us.

Love always, Jenny.
 

I know this is like a while ago. But...
You did not screw your life up. You just have issues. I used to feel the same way, but my fiance has led me though it all to a life that I'm (mostly) proud of. I still get that way too, though.
*hugs* For the most part, you aren't the one who f***s up the "relationships" with the awesome people, because if it was meant to be then it would happen. There are better people who will enter your life. You just need(ed?) to wait for them and be patient.