My psychic pain is not showing its meaning!!!!

     I have no idea what is going on right now, weather, too busy, physical pain, not sure, but I am on the edge of screaming!!!!!!!!!!  I have this empty feeling in my gut that won't seem to go away.  I pray, I meditate, but this longing tearful deep pressure in my stomach remains unchanged. I miss my husband who is in Iraq, and the stress of being the mom and the dad is nearly more than I can handle.  However, I believe that this pressure is more than even I could explain.  I have this feeling that there is something dreadful either coming, happening, or already happened and I do not know what it is.  Do I think I am psychic, no I know I am, not very skilled at it as of yet, but working on it.  I hate the days where I feel the dread of others and can not put my finger on it.  Have I called it in the past, many times, but it is usually after the fact that I find out that I am correct.  I started to write down the very specific feelings, but this one is general, too general that it makes me nervous.  This world is very confusing; there is love and hate in every moment in every city, state and country.  I have written down and been correct about so many things that have happened over the past few years but I can not come up with even a guess as to my current heavy heart.  I thought if I wrote I would be able to come up with something but still I sit, writing about nothing!!!!!!!!  Deeper and deeper in thought and further and further from an answer.  I will write again if something comes to me, but to all of you who KNOW I love you, and to those of you who I love because you are my brother or sister in Christ, and yes to those who I know or do not know who I love out of my passion to love everyone as Christ would want me to, I will be praying that what ever I am feeling will not cause you any pain! 

                               Thank you for the place to put my words

                                                       Ronni