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Any Cards or help even $1.00 please send to:
Rev. Teresa Piercey
P.O. Box 793
Mineral Wells, Texas
76067
Really How Big is Your God?
Psa 37:25 I have been young, and now am old; yet have I not seen the righteous forsaken, nor his seed begging bread. I am relying on the words of this Psalmist.
Today our biggest fear came true. Pathology for the tumor returned and it is offically called an Intrinsic Brainstem high grade glioma, graded at a 3 - 4 scale on a scale 1-4. Tumor originated in the brainstem, highgrade is the active cancer aggressive cancer cell, glioma typle of tumor. There is no cure for this type of tumor, with radiation we were given 12-18 months for little Kendricks life. Originally it was thought the tumor originated in the PONDS of the brain then spread down to the brainstem then to the left lobe from the biopsy of begnin tissue from surgery but pathology revealled that this tumor began in the brainstem then cauilflowered out to the left hemisphere of the brain. Our Dr consulted with Dr from MD Anderson and St Jude and the response was the same no cure, he was straight forward. First thing this morning we were told that we were being transfered to the 6th floor rehab all was good then we left and ate breakfast to come back to a group of poeple who took us to a private room to tell me my boy will die in 12 months.... this has been a horrible ride of emotions, Alicia and I are hurting so bad.
ANGER, BITTERNESS, SORROW, KNOTS IN THE STOMACH, TEARS, GROANING, ASKING WHY, WHAT IF, DID I OR DIDN'T I, WHAT SIN, TESTING, TRIAL, JUDGEMENT, WHAT GOD? WHY NOT? WE ARE HURTING.
PRAYER: If I truly believe in this faith that I have devoted myself and my family to then I must rely that God does answer prayer. Specific Prayer: Please pray Kendrick will tolerate rehab quickly so we can enjoy a Christmas at home prior to Radiation and Chemo treatment. 2. We sit the boys down tomorrow and tell them their little brother will be having chemo therepy, they have been so strong but you can see and feel the worry in their hearts.
I have been tormenting myself with so much, Why haven't I taken my baby to the zoo or a recent ballgame why have I put things off or deemed other things more important. My baby has been wanting to visit, see and do somethings and I am going to dedicate myself to fulfilling his wishes while we have him for this short period of time. Those of you who know me, KNOW that everytime you ask me " How are you Doing?" I respond the same way... WONDERFUL, TERRIFIC, GREAT, SUPER DUPER, or BLESSED no matter the situation I am in, well honestly right now Alicia and I need Help we are hurting so bad, I am full of so much worry, I am worried about my little boy, I am worried about my wife, I am worried about my children, I am worried how am I going to make it without working, I am worried about how am I going to explain to baby Ruth who her brother is, she will never get to know the great little boy I know. I am worried how am I going to get through this, I love my boys, I should have played more soccer or bought him the bike he wanted or maybe let him stay up alittle later and rest in lap, 12 months is so fast, how do I make each moment, each second count, he is my baby, please help us we need your prayers, we need your words, we have to have all your hearts, I mean EVERYONES heart, forgive us we are so very sorry!!!
Alan Little