you see
me

i never take advantage
of the advantages i have

always taking for granted
what i never had to grab

because it was all given

driven by what selfishness i create

i think that since i own my home
and picket fence
that i no longer have to mow the lawn

fond and content

no longer have to bend my emotions...


you see
on first dates
we give great first impressions

look up lessons on the world wide web
study in books for the test that is the first dinner
hoping to pass

talking of who we were
while trying so hard to hide who we are

if you show the scars
most would take a moment to decide if they want to continue on

so we
on that first time
hoping it will not be the last time
pray that our scars do not scare the one we want away

praying for the next date or day we can woo them into submission

to be given permission to love someone
and for them to love back
is a high wall to climb

you try and you try to find the strength to make it to the top
while leaving the fear behind
so you climb

continuing on slowly so you won't fall

because we never want to be broken
pain
emotionally
is worse then being cut deeply by a knife

in the past
i did not write nice
i wrote wrongs

writing wrongs in hyrogliphics
prayed for that day when the right person would come along
and interpret

rub away the dust lightly
for i am brittle

we humans are brittle

we as individuals want to pull that individual we want to be close to
closer

using parts of ourselves
to fish for the whole of another