i want to believe in karma

in both forms

A. in the sense that if i have ever done anything truly wrong to anyone

i would hope that karma has and will catch up to me.

and

B. in the form that being so humble when those have done me wrong will continue to work.

i had a moment of weakness for a while.

a time in which i would get excited and just flap my jaw about anything

i am careful now once again

i am still honest

but if people don’t ask then they don’t need to know.


all i can see when i look at angry hateful people is fright, and stupidity and confusion

like that of a chicken pecking at the wood of a chopping block because they know there is a worm wriggling somewhere deep within the rotting wood...then afterward staring blankly at this other chicken who is looking back at them from the inside of the freshly sharpened blade of a shiny red ax.

i am not a perfect individual i am flawed beyond all belief. But why after telling people this must they turn around and try to shove it in my face?

A dog lays behind a chain link fence...one eye opened one eye closed, idle and trying to rest. Just wanting to be happy and calm. One never wants to fight but cannot deny who they are and what time has made them become. It is the goal of every living creature ( especially this one ) to simply and be happy.

: The dog bites..do not stick your hand in the cage :
human looks at dog
dog wags its tail but bares its teeth
human sticks hand in cage
stupid human...

OUCH the dog bit me ... STUPID FUCKING BAD DOG YOU STUPID DOG WHY DID YOU BITE ME ?! You mother fucker i hate you !

The silly human is bleeding now...blood is running down their hand and soaking the sleeve on their 10 dollar walmart sweater...the bite really isnt that bad...but In shock the human is screaming profanities and kicking things. The veins are popping out of their neck and they are beat red in the face. All this shouting and anger actually makes the pain worse you know. If you could just calm down and deal with what just happened mentally then you might alright.

BUT the doggy was cute !! you didnt think the doggy would bite..even though the sign said it and it bared its teeth at you. !!! How dare the doggy bite you !!!

bohoo...life is full of doggy bites..

if you want a lap dog then go get one but dont be upset because you took a risk and lost

:shugs:

so now everyday you go up to the dogs yard and as your walking by you drag a stick along the chain wire fence, spit on the grass and make a nervous laugh...you smile because you feel as if ruining its sleep its getting revenge...

but you walk fast and you are constantly checking your ass to make sure the dog hasnt awoken

what are you trying to do? Do you want to be bitten again? Why do you feel you need revenge against something that you knew was going to hurt you in the first place ?

you think about that dog everyday it bothers you so much ...and the only way you would ever feel complete would be to hurt the dog just as bad as it hurt you.

but you cannot because the dog has no worries and spends its days lying in the sun. The dog is okay with the way it is ...why cant you be okay with it ? Dont force it to change...just dont pet a dog that will bite if you arent a masochist and dont like the feeling of pain...that dog is perfect for someone..

but you will never learn ... you will taunt the dog everyday until what? it bites again ? it says sorry ? it already apologized for the way it is in the form of a warning.

have you forgotten the the dog does not bark at all .... it only bites ?